lessons | k.th + p.jm (j.jk)

† • one

My head hurts, maybe I drank too much. No, I barely drank anything. Argh, I need Taehyung. 

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I climbed the gutter on the side of his house, thankfully he left the window open tonight so I happily let my self-roll through the opening. 

"Hey Park," I heard Taehyung speak from the other side of the room. I sat on the floor looking towards the sound. Taehyung sat at his desk, back to me doing homework as usual. I smiled seeing him. 

"Watcha doing?" I faked a happier voice, the truth was I was extremely tired and out of it. But I wanted to see Tae, he is my best friend after all.

I met Taehyung when we were 7 years old, I pushed him into a puddle at school when he moved to my compass. Instead of crying or yelling, he got up and asked to be friends. For some reason, I accepted because his response was no unexpected and I liked that. Now we're 17 and next door neighbours and his my closet friend.   

"Just reading through Psychology chapters..." he said monotoned. I laid on his bed looking up at his ceiling groaning. I heard him give a small huff, "What happened to you?" he questioned.

"Was out with Namjoon-Hyung at his new friend Jin's house," I threw my arm over my head and the other on my stomach taking in a deep breath. 

"What's up your ass then?" he giggled with his comment, I turned my head to look at him, he gave a small smile and I returned one. 

"There was this dude there and he was, how do you say it? Extremely beautiful," I smiled at my own stupidity, I heard Taehyung laugh as my attention was brought back to the roof of the bedroom. "I don't know we were flirting back and forth and once everyone left the living room for a second, he basically manhandled me and brought me to his lap and started making out with me."

"Ew..." 

One thing about Taehyung, he was innocent, extremely innocent. He didn't know a lot about the female or male body except for his own. Majority of it is my fault, growing up he was always being cute and adorable and I didn't want his innocence to go so I shielded him from a lot of it the best I could. 

Me on the other hand, I lost my virginity at 15. I don't know, I didn't have much of a guidance that most kids have from their parents so I did whatever I wanted with people. Including breaking their hearts and switching from people in a span of a week. Yeah, I was a slut, I've slowed down now because of my age getting older but it was a side of me Taehyung rarely ever saw, and it was for the better. If he knew that part of me I don't know if he would be friends with me anymore. 

And that thought made me want to cry.

I smiled,  "Anyway things got heated but when the guys started coming back in he threw me off," I shrugged my shoulders, I didn't want Taehyung to know it affected me, but it did. I've gotten tired of moving around with people honestly, I wanted something real for once, someone to actually love. 

"Asshole, what was his name?" Taehyung had moved his chair to face me fully.

"I don't know he wouldn't tell me, he just said to call him Suga..." I groaned I didn't want to talk about it anymore. I flung my self to sit directly in front of Taehyung. "What about you Tae? Do you have a crush on anyone?" I faked another smile trying to forget the previous conversation. 

"Oh um.." I caught Taehyung off guard. "I don't know Jeon Jungkooks pretty hot..." he looked to the side with a small smile. I went through my thoughts trying to see if I knew that boy.

"Oh yeah! I've seen him at a few parties, really isn't he younger than you?" My mood thankfully uplifted and now I talked with genuine joy. 

"Yeah I know but still, either way, I'm a pussy when it comes to flirting and stuff so I don't bother..." he looked away again but more scared. This was the first actual crush Taehyung has ever had, yeah sure he had little ones when he was young but from what I see, he seems to genuinely like this guy. 

Suddenly, a thought crossed my mind. 

No Jimin, that would make him feel uncomfortable. 

But it would help him.

And we always help each other no matter how weird it's gotten. 

But what if he judges me?

He's your best friend Jimin just do it.

"Hey, I can teach you!" I pretended to be excited, but I was scared.

"Teach me?" Taehyung rose his eyebrow. 

"Yeah, I'll teach you ways to get with Jungkook!" I smiled brightly. 

"Jimin you're my best friend that would be weird..." he moved back slightly in confusion. 

"Only weird if we make it weird!" which was true. 

Taehyung paused for a minute, his own angel and demons having the same battle I just did in his mind. He took a deep breath and moved forward again. 

"Alright okay," he shrugged his shoulders. I mentally took a relieved breath. I wanted to ask 'What? really? why?!' but it didn't want this conversation to get more awkward than it already was. 

"Cool, we start tomorrow!" I gave another big smile before heading back towards the window,

"See you later Park..." Taehyung mumbled nicely, I gave him one last look before crawling back out the window and climbing down the gutter towards my own house. 

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What did I just do...?