lessons | k.th + p.jm (j.jk)

† • thirty-three

"Hey"

"Hey"

I awkwardly sat opposite the person I hadn't seen in years, enjoying a nice lunch with him at a simple cafe in the city. We sat outside in sight of all the people peacefully walking past. 

"What's been happening?"

"Same old."

I finally graduated high school, and life has been very good so far after about a month of being out of school. I work in a cafe near my house and still in contact with a few people from school. Life was good, and I was happy. I decided to reach out to my very first boyfriend Jb from years ago, just to see how he was.

So now we sat across from each other chatting about life.

"What about you?" I asked taking a sip of my coffee, "How's Uni?"

"Yeah," he took a breath, "It's good, just getting by I guess, it's pretty stressful. How's life after school? Exams?"

"Exams were pretty stressful but I focused all my energy there and I got a good score in the end. Now I'm just working to get some money and then I'll probs head to uni, don't know what I'll study though," I told him slowly and throughtfully.

"That's good, how's your family and friends?" he questions, sipping his own drink.

"Yeah Sana's good, she's planning to move out soon with her boyfriend so I'll be living alone soon which is exciting. As for friends I'm in contact with a few but I mainly just hang out with myself lately."

"What about your old friend? Taehyung wasn't it?" 

MY body stilled for a second before taking a breath, "We stopped being friends a few motnhs ago, I haven't seen him, foragers, I'm not sure what he's up to honestly." It pained me slightly to be talking about him again after so long, but it was somewhat relieving and got my thinking.

"That's unfortunate to hear, I hope everything works out between you two," he told me sincerely to which I smiled too. "I know it's been a few years but I'm sorry things couldn't work out between us, I really did enjoy being with you, I was just so focused on uni work."

"No please don't apologize," I extended my head to lay on his. "I completely understood and we remained friends after which made me happy." We both smiled at each other as I brought back my hand.

"Thank you for meeting Jimin, it's been a good afternoon. I should be heading back to school shortly." He spoke as he stood up.

"Yes that's true, I should be heading home also. It was nice meeting you again." I stood up also as we both exchanged a nice hug and then going on our ways.

The car ride home was easy, the cafe wasn't too far away from home anyway. I got home and greeted Sana who was making food to which I stole a bit of. I headed upstairs to my bedroom, opening the door but immediately stopped in my path.

"Tae?"

He was standing in my room looking at all the photos I had up of us.

"Shit, sorry I didn't realize how creepy this looked," he awkwardly said looking around. I was practically frozen, I hadn't seen this boy in months despite living next to him. He was bigger, and tall, and his voice was lower, I guess he finished going through puperty. It was so weird to see him in my room again after so long.

"W-What are you doing here?" I slowly asked stepping inside my room and closing the door. 

"I... uh, guess I came to talk. I didn't think you still have all the photos up," he mumbled.

I shrugged my shoulders, "It's nice to remember to good memories," I told him to which he nodded before sitting down on the bed. I moved around to sit on my desk chair facing him. "So you came to talk?" I questioned very confused.

"Yeah, I don't know I've been thinking a lot recently of everything, escpially that night where everything happened," he told me looking at the floor. 

"Okay..." I said quietly.

"You, you told me you liked me that night, twice actually," he softly spoke.

"Uh, yeah?" I questioned.

"I completely ignored you and went back inside," he continued.

"What point are you trying to make?" I asked suspiciously.

"I guess I'm saying I can kind of understand why you-

"No Tae, nothing can excuse what I did," I told him sternly.

"I-I know, I don't really know why I came here," he rubbed the back of his neck while mumbling. 

"T-Tae I-I," I awkwardly stuttered out, I wasn't sure what to do or what to say. So I said the first thing I was thinking after a brief moment of silence. "I miss you."

He looked up upon hearing that, he stared at me for a bit not saying anything before looking back at the floor. "Jimin..." he muttered quietly.

"I know that's not ideal to say but, it's what I feel." I paused, seeing if he wanted to say anything but he didn't. "I haven't thought about you for a while, after graduation I focused on myself but seeing you here right in front of me just reminds me of when you were in my life and how I miss you."

More silence, for a rough 30 seconds of me staring at him as he stared at the ground until he quietly spoke up. "I... miss you too, I guess."

My eyes widen for a second but I tried to act normal to not put him off. "R-Really?"

"But it's hard because every time I think of you all I see you is over Jungkook from that night a-and it's hard because I just want everything to go back to normal b-but it's so hard-"

I could hear his voice choke up as tears were starting to form in his eyes and my heart broke immediately. I got up from the desk chair and sat next to him.

"I know, I know and I'm so sorry," I whispered as I instinctively put my arm around his shoulder while he pulled himself together.

"Sometimes I wish I never met Jungkook, then this whole thing would've never happened, " he whispered wiping his nose and eyes.

"Jungkook was a positive part of your life for so long Tae, I wish I never made that mistake then this would've never happened," I told him rubbing his arm, he slowly nodded.

I started to think of a way I could make the situation better, this was my window, my one chance to bring everything back together and make my life whole again. "Hey what if," I began thinking if this was a good idea. "What if I take you out for a day just us two and I remind you of all the reasons for why were friends for so many years and at the end of it you can decide if you want me to be a part of your life again."

He stared at me for a while I guess thinking of an answer but I was a bit distracted on how much I missed his face, it sounded creepy but I honestly forgot how beautiful he looked up close.

"That doesn't sound like a bad idea actually," he spoke quietly and I felt my body grow lighter.

"I'll come to your house tomorrow and we'll go out?" I asked.

"You'll plan a whole day by tomorrow?" he jokingly asked with a smile, wow I missed his smile.

"Don't underestimate me," I joked back. Our eyes locked for a moment and I guess we became lost staring at each other and it just my body on fire. "Y-You should get going," I told him, not wanting to make any dumb decisions he'll regret. 

"Y-yeah, I'll see you tomorrow," he told me before leaving out the window.

Don't fuck this up Jimin.