lessons | k.th + p.jm (j.jk)

† • twenty-three

I quickly ran downstairs to see Taehyung waiting for me at the front door. I was planning on saying bye to Hoseok but he was already passed out on his couch. 

"The Uber is here," Taehyung told me once I approached him. I smiled in return, my head still hurting a bit from the alcohol. We both hopped into the back seat as the car began to drive, Taehyung's head started resting on my shoulder as I rested my eyes. "Jimin?"

"Hm?"

"How many people have you dated?" He mumbled still resting on my shoulder. 

"That's a random question," I responded. 

"Curious."

"Well I was with Yugyeom for a bit, I guess he was my first Boyfriend. Then I dated a girl, Nayeon for a second but you didn't like her so I broke up with her-"

"Wow really?" He asked with a giggle. 

"Yeah, you don't remember?" I humored to which he shook his head.  "But I guess the most serious relationship I've ever had was with Jb."

Taehyung lifted his head to look at me properly, "Oh I remember him, he was nice."

I nodded my head slowly, "Yeah he got along well with you, but he had to go to University so we agreed to break up mutually." Taehyung just nodded in response. "Why the sudden curiosity?"

I saw him look down and his mood start to drop, "I um asked Jungkook to be my boyfriend."

 A weird feeling arose in my stomach if anything it was just growing from when I walked in on Jungkook and Tae. I knew what position they were in and it just made a strange turning inside of me. Like a weird bizarre type of jealousy, I was mad, I was sad, I was angry but I couldn't find a single reason why. Taehyung isn't my boyfriend, he can make whatever decision he wants. 

"But he said he wants to wait until we're both sure its what we both want or some weird excuse," he sighed and kept looking at his hands, he was obviously hurt. More anger rose within me, realizing they had had this conversation and then Jungkook asked me to kiss him. Pathetic. 

"Are you... how do you feel about it?" I asked tiredly. 

"Shit," he answered falling back on my shoulder. "I saw you drunk before, saw you make out with Hoseok-Hyung," 

My stomach turned once again, I hated when he saw me like that. It's one of the reasons I don't let him near that environment. 

"I'm sorry Tae."

"It's whatever."

∞

"Is Sana out?" Taehyung asked as we entered through the front door. 

"Yeah yeah at her boyfriend's," I replied awkwardly knowing I still had to hide my sister and Tae's brother's relationship. We slowly made out upstairs to my bedroom. 

I couldn't tell if it was just me, but I could feel so much unusual tension in the air. Like always, the house was dark, empty, and now it was just me and Taehyung wondering around quietly. 

My head started to throb and I couldn't think straight. Images of Jungkook and Taehyung from earlier was still making me angry and annoyed and I couldn't understand it and it was driving me mad. I watched Taehyung walk in my room and slowly undress to get ready to go to bed. he took off his jumper leaving his thin shirt and removed his jeans before sitting on the bed probably waiting for me. 

"Jimin?" He questioned snapping me out of my trance. I gave a half smile before I started to finally move. I removed my jacket and shirt and my pants to replace them with pajama ones. Taehyung stood up and handed me my clothes. Everything he was doing, was just making me happy and was making that yucking feeling in my stomach go away slower and slower. 

He stayed standing after I was ready for bed also, but we both didn't move. We stood in the middle of the room just kind of, staring at each other. It was weird, very weird, it was unusual to have this much tension and thick air between us. I didn't know how I felt, but I was still so sad and I knew he felt the same or else he wouldn't be acting like this. 

A dog bark, from a house in the street, sounded loud. I quickly turned my head on instinct upon hearing it. Quickly realizing it was just a dog so I began to turn my head when I just felt a massive wave of electricity and a sudden beat of bravery.

I smashed my lips against Taehyung's without any second thought. What shocked me more was how quick he started to kiss back, I quickly learned that he was feeling the same tension I was. I grabbed the material of his shirt on his back and we broke out into an intense make out. Our tongues sliding against each other so normally. 

"Jump," I whispered against his lips to which he quickly obliged. I carried him as we made out still, I walked over to sit on the bed so he ended up straddling me. I grabbed his t-shirt and threw it off his head before kissing his stomach. 

"Fuck Tae~" I hummed while kissing his body. My hands extending up and down his back as he hummed and threw his head back. "Tae?"

"Y-Yeah?" He asked looking down at me. 

"P-Please... I want you... trust me," I whispered to him. 

Truth was, I didn't know what was happening. Everything in my life wasn't present in my mind, my only focus was him, I just needed to be with him. He wasn't my best friend at that time, he wasn't anybody. All I wanted was to forget everything to do with him and me and Jungkook and show him how much he actually meant to me. 

I looked up at him waiting for an answer until he slowly nodded, "Take me," he whispered. With that, I grabbed him and positioned him under me so he laid down properly on the bed. I hovered over him looking down at him. 

"I-I'm scared," he whispered again. 

"I've got you, baby, I'm not gonna hurt you, I'm not gonna let you go, you can trust me forever, I have you always."