lessons | k.th + p.jm (j.jk)

† • twenty-four

The warmth of his body was the first thing I noticed upon waking up. With the small stretch of my eyes, the colour of skin welcomed my sight firstly. A soft Taehyung curled up in my arms as our legs intertwined, the bed covers being balanced on our hips. Quick memories flashed through my head rapidly which only bubbled a warm feeling inside my stomach - a different feeling from last night. The weird anger and sadness feelings were currently replaced with love and happiness. I laid a light kiss on Taehyung's forehead which cued him to start waking up. 

"Good morning~" I whispered into his ear still laying small kisses. He began to open his eyes and observe his surroundings. He rubbed his eyes gently as he gazed moved from our bodies tangled together, to the floor where our clothes were scattered and to me in the end. 

"Argh..." he groaned quickly before sitting up from the bed laying his hands in his lap. My hand came and began stroking his back lightly, he seemed very tired. 

"Everything alright?" I asked calmly and nicely. He did a very fast nod before untangling our legs and swinging them off the side of the bed as he sat closed off. He looked around some more. Still rubbing his eyes, obviously thinking about something in his mind. I stayed laying down with my head resting on my arm just watching him. 

He looked at me once more before speaking, "Um look Jimin- I, argh." He pinched the bridge of his nose in annoyance. 

"What's wrong Tae?" I questioned simply. 

"I uh, don't think last night should've happened..." 

Well, that was definitely not what I expected. I think if you listened closely you could hear my stomach drop. I decided to rise up on my elbows as he continued staring at the floor. 

"What do you mean?" I tried to ask casually. 

"I just... like I know things were kind of shitty last night but if I ever want to get serious with Jungkook I can't really go and have sex with my best friend."

Of course, Jungkook, again like always. I rubbed my eyes before sitting up fully. 

"A-Are you okay?" I decided to ask first. 

"Yeah yeah I'm fine-"

"Did I... rush you into it?"

"No Jimin you were fine-"

"Do you regret it?"

"... N-No I don't..."

I watched him, and how it took him a second to answer that question and how little eye contact he was making with me. 

"Do you regret doing it with me?"

He finally looked at me, he didn' say anything but his look said enough. I scoffed to the side and rolled my eyes before moving off the bed. I grabbed my close off the floor and quickly started dressing.

"Jimin please don't ignore me," he pleaded.

 So I ignored him. 

I moved around to collect more clothes and throwing his own clothes at him.  

"Seriously Jimin please don't be childish," he continued. "You seriously can't see it from my perspective-" 

That's when I snapped. 

"No Taehyung I can't! I can't understand how you can have sex with someone and then turn around and say it didn't mean anything! I'm not like I used to be Taehyung, I don't just go around sleeping with people and forget the next day if I'm gonna have sex with someone it's because I want to be with them!" I took a second to breathe. "You're obviously too in love Jungkook to realize the fact that you are hurting other people Taehyung, you can't fucking do that to someone."

With that I stormed out of the room, dropping whatever I had in my hands on the floor. I marched down the stairs before resting on the wall beside the case. 

"Jimin?" Sana's voice surprised me as she walked over to me kindly. "What's wrong? You seem really upset."

I couldn't say anything inside my body just fell into hers, she hugged me instantly to which I hugged her back. She rubbed my back tenderly as I laid deep breathed into her neck trying not to get too worked up. 

"Come on let's get you some water," she whispered before leading me into the kitchen. I sat down on the stools looking at my feet has Sana poured me a cold glass. "What happened?" she asked quickly. 

I took a deep breath before telling my sister something deep and personal. "I... think I like Taehyung," I whispered softly playing with my glass. She didn't react much instead just nodded slightly. 

"Why's that?" she questioned. 

"I'm not entirely sure, just last night we uh... slept together and this morning he said he regretted it and it just argh made me so mad and angry but overall really sad and I don't know what to do," I buried my head in my hands in annoyance. 

Sana gave me a sympathetic look before coming around and hugging me from the side. "Oh Jiminie, you need to tell him," she whispered close to me. The words hit me like a truck, struggling to decide if it was a smart decision or not. I didn't say anything instead just let her gently stroke my hair. 

After some time I went back to my room and to no surprise, Taehyung was gone out of my window. I threw myself onto my bed moaning in annoyance

"You sure baby?" I whispered against his ear. 

"Yes yes please," he begged before I started going in slowly-

I snapped my head out of the memory not wanting to think about Taehyung. 

"Feels weird," he whined underneath me. 

"I know it'll get better," I kissed him again before laying soft kisses all around his face and neck-

I grabbed the nearest pillow and shoved it over my face. 

"F-faster, it feels good~" he breathed out.

"Of course baby-"

"Arghhhh!!" I buried my face further into my bed. 

"Jiminie s-so close-"

"Wait for me gorgeous -"

"Oh my God stop!" I yelled out loud. I threw the pillow across the room causing a photo of Taehyung and me to hit the grown and shatter. "For fuck's sake," I groaned loudly before going over and picking up the broken picture frame. I hissed at the small pieced of broken glass that hit my finger. I turned over the picture frame to be thrown back to a good memory of Taehyung and me. 

It was the night we went out for dinner just us two and later went and saw a movie. It was a simple day but it still holds such a nice memory. I knew I couldn't keep lying to Taehyung about my feelings, in the end, he'll have to know some day. Even if he has deeply fallen for Jungkook, maybe it will cause something to change. I put down the photograph and stared at the broken glass on the floor. 

"I'll tell him as soon as possible" I declared out loud, I look out the window wondering if I should head out now or not. "Starting tomorrow."