Opposites attract

Panic attack 2.0

Gonna be honest, i'm not very proud of this haha. It could've been better but I just wanted to get something out for y'all. Plus it's super long, hopefully that makes up for it being trash xx Lulu

When I got home that afternoon both my parents were in the living room talking in a hushed tone.

"Hey guys" I smiled nervously stepping into the room. "Blakely!" Mom smiled.
"Hey mom, hi dad".
"We were just talking about you. Look sweetie, your mom and I have been thinking, and we don't believe it was fair of us to ask you to make a decision this big" my dad said.

You don't say.

"We've been taking all day about this" Mom began, "we've come up with a compromise that we both think would be the best option for us".
"For us as in you and dad?" I asked, "cause there seems to be a lot of that going around lately".

"No sweetie, all of us!" Dad exclaimed.
"Really? So did you think about all of us when you cheated on mom? Did you two think about all of us when you decided to get a divorce? Did you think about all of us when you put it upon me to make this decision all on my own because you guys weren't grown up enough to do it yourselves? I'm so sick of this! I'm sick of being ok with everyone's messed up behavior! I'm the kid remember?!" I yelled.

They both looked beyond shocked, as if this was a surprise to them. All of this stress, the sleepless nights and my grades going down was already hard enough, their immaturity was only adding to that and I was so over it. I was really done with just about everyone's behavior today.

"Sweetie, we had no idea you felt like that" mom frowned.
"Of course you didn't. I get this is upsetting for you but it is for me too! You lost dad, I feel like I've lost dad and you".
"Come sit down Blakely, we should talk about this" dad said standing up.
"You know I got junior school captain?" I asked ignoring him.
They looked at each other then back at me in confusion. "No, you didn't, because you haven't asked me how school was in about 2 months, did you also know I had another panic attack at school?"

"What?" My Mom frowned.
"Yeah, you didn't. We've talked many times, but somehow you two still don't know what's going on in my life so what makes you think it's gonna change now?" I felt my eyes begin to water, but I forced myself not to cry.

"Baby, come here" mom stood up as well.
"No" I shook my head, "no, I need to go". I turned around and rushed out of the house. They called out after me but I ignored them and jumped into my car.

I wasn't sure where to go, but I just didn't want to be at home. Looking back, driving while I was on the verge of a panic attack was definitely not a good idea, but I wasn't in the right mind state to realize that in the moment.

I pulled out of the driveway and went left. I just drove straight and blinked away the tears that were blurring my vision. Some dumb song was playing out loud on the radio and it only stresses me out even more. I was an absolute mess.

My heart was beating so hard against my chest I could hear it. The sound of cars driving around me, my heart pounding, the music and my heavy breathing was too much.

I completely broke down in tears. I couldn't see or hear anything good. I got to an intersection where I should've given way, but I didn't see the sign until I was already halfway on the road.

A car was coming at full speed on my right. I slammed on the breaks as hard as I could when I saw it. In that moment, I decided that there was someone up there who wanted me to live.

The other car had slammed on the breaks too, leaving us about 2 inches apart.

Everything had happened so quickly I barely remembered it. I just stared ahead of me at the person in the car who was yelling at me and tried to catch my breath.