Divergent High

Chapter 30

Tris pov

This is my third month of chemo already and it sucks. My hair fell out almost immediately in the first few weeks of chemo. My doctor makes me carry around an oxygen tank everywhere I go because she's realized I'm having a hard time breathing.

I sit in my usual chair and read while I wait for the treatment to be over.

"Knock knock" I hear a familiar voice say standing at the doorway

Christina.

She's been there for me throughout this whole journey.

"Coffee" she ask holding a cup towards me and I shake my head no

"Not feeling so good today so I don't want that to make it worse" I say

"More for me then" she says and we laugh

"How was the honeymoon" I ask her because her and will recently got married

"Amazing. You're so right married sex is so much better" she whispers and I laugh

"Oh how I miss that" I say

"You can't have sex" she ask

"No I can just nothing too rough but Tobias is so protective. He doesn't want to hurt me or make me sick, which could not happen because he's the most gentlest person ever but he treats me like I'm a sick puppy" I say and Christina laughs

"Tris you are a sick puppy" she says

"I know but I want sex and my husband doesn't see that" I whine but we both laugh

"At the beginning of this I was scared and not really sure how to go about my life but I've come to terms with my cancer and how I have to go on. I'm okay with dying, I just want to make sure I spend the absolute most time with the people I love." I say

"Enough of this dying talk. You are not going to die" she says getting sad

"Chris, I could be. I mean I do all my treatments and take all my medicines but this cancer is kicking my butt. I hurt and I feel myself getting weaker and weaker as the weeks go on. So everyone let's not pretend that I could not die from this because guess what I could and I think I am" I say laying my head back focusing on my breathing.

I open my eyes and look to see for Christina but she was gone.
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"Christina called me today" Tobias says as we get into bed for the night

"And" I say taking my night medicine real quick

"And she was upset" he says

"She probably just didn't like what I had to say" I say

"She didn't and quite frankly no one does when you talk about yourself dying" Tobias says

"Tobias, what do you want me to say? That I'm living. I'm going to be okay because that's not how I feel, that's not what the test are showing. I'm dying" I say

"Why can't you have a positive mindset" he says annoyed.

"I'm trying" I say

"We'll try harder" he says and walks out the room

I put my hands on my face and sigh.

I get out of bed and drag my tank with me.

Tobias is in the kitchen with a beer.

"I'm sorry" I say taking the beer away from him. I throw it in the trash and go to face him.

I put my cold hands on his cheeks and lean my lips up to his. He kisses back with such passion but stops and pulls away.

"We can't. I don't want to hurt you" he says

"You're not" I say grabbing his hand and putting it on my ass. I leave small kisses on his neck and he quietly moans.

He lifts me onto the counter and smashes his lips on mine. We kiss back and forth and he pulls me closer.

He carries me to our room and almost forgets to bring along the tank but grabs it at the last minute.

The door gets closed and he pulls off his clothing.
I'm still tangled in my shirt when he's done.

He helps me out of that mess which makes us laugh. Then softly puts his lips back on mine.

I lay back and he looms over me.

"Can I take your hat off. I want to see every part of you" He says

"I'm very insecure about my head" I whisper

"I'm your husband I don't care what you look like" he says and I nod

He gently removes my beanie hat and leaves small kisses on my head.

He looks into my eyes with love and leaves one last kiss on my lips.

"Ready" he says and I nod

"I really want this" I say and he seals my lips with a kiss as he pushes inside me.

I squeeze the closest pillow and moan. He sucks on my collarbone but I bring his lips back to mine and we stay like this most of the night.

The last 2 chapters were really short but please give me ideas, I want to write a really long chapter for the next chapter so give me a really good idea

No idea is dumb i love them all