Lost Cause

Bands, Guitars & Scars

"Megan please eat" my dad put a small plate of food infront of me, I pushed it back at him

"No" I stared off into space

"Please sweetie drink something atleast"

"Vodka" I seriously wasnt joking

"Megs I can't give you vodka" he turned to the fridge and got a bottle of diet coke out

Handing it to me he planted a kiss on my forehead and went upstairs to shower before taking me back to the unit

The unit gave me a few extra days off, they thought staying home would help me understand things better, what even is there to understand, Mads is dead and she is never coming back

Now was my chance, I grabbed a water bottle from the fridge and tiped out the contense, reaching for the vodka and filling it up next thing, blades

I went into the cupboard in the downstairs bathroom and pulled out a razor

Taking away all the plastic I was left with 5 blades, 5 peices of perfection

I put them in my back pocket and ran up to my room

I looked for somewhere else to put them, I can't but them in my usual places since mum and dad know

I scanned my room and picked an envolope up and placed 4 of the blades in it

Carefully lifting up my matress I put the envolope under it and soundlesly put it back down

"Megan" mum called for me from dowstairs, I got my back and went to the living room

"You all set"

"Yeah is dad in the car"

"Yeah, come on" I sigjed and followed my mum to the car

~~~TIME SKIP~~~

"She's gone Matt" I sobbed into his shirt as he hugged me

"I know baby" he rocked me calming me a little

"I need her Matt"

"You have to keep on fighting" he started singing something to me

I wanna be your vaccum cleaner breathing in your dust

I wanna be yout ford cortina

I will never rust

If you like your coffee hot

Let me be your coffee pot

You call the shots babe

I just wanna be yours

Secrets I have held in my heart

Are harder to hide than thought

Maybe I just wanna be yours

I wanna be yours

I hummed along with the song

"How did you know they are my favourite band?" I had stopped sobbing and was calmer now

"I remember when we listened to music and Crying Lighting came on and you said that Arctic Monkeys were amazing live and were your favourite band, along with Mayday Parade"

"You have a good voice Matt" it was heavenly I can't even describe it

"I don' Megs but I can play the guitar quite well"

I giggled a little, I hadn't even thought about my guitar in ages

"Sommet funny tommo?" his southern accent was perfect