Lost Cause

1 of 2 ways

--*MATTS POV*--

I took Megan up to her room and sat her on the bed

I got her some pjiamas and helped her change

When she took her top off she pulled her arms into her and I knew it must be bad 

I sat down next to her and wrapped her in my arms

She unfolded her arms and put them around me buring her head into my shirt

I held back the tears in my eyes

She just stayed silent in my arms until she pulled out

"I hate myself Matt" She let her arms drop by her side

I looked at her arms to see jaggered slashes from wrist to elbow

"You don't need to Megan" I looked back to her eyes

"I do I killed Maddie and I do this to myslef I hate it all" how can she think she killed Maddie

"Megan you didn't kill Maddie the bastard that did is behind bars, and just because you hurt yorself doesn't mean everyone hates you and you shouldn't hate yourself" I felt a tear slip from my eye

Megan brushed it away with her thumb and tried to smile a little but she couldn't

She got up and put her pjiamas on

Once she was in bed I sat with her for a while till she fell asleep

I went back downstairs and everyone had moved from the table into the living room

Eleanor was wrapped in Louis arms looking half asleep

Harry was sat with his feet on Nialls lap,  Laim,  Zayn and Ed were just sat around staring into space

I sat down next to Ed and everyone looked at me apart from a now asleep Eleanor

"How was she" Niall asked braking the ice

"Broken" I don't know how else to describe it

"She said she killed Mads and I think it's something to do with a nightmere she had last" They all looked at me like I had just killed a puppy

"Why didn't she say anything" Zayn asked

"She was scared but I don't know why" I glanced down to my watch 11:18

"Im going to bed, Louis do you want me make up any spare beds or anything? " I hoped he'd say yes

"Yeah if you want that'd be great thanks Matt, I will take Eleanor up to bed" he picked her up bridal style and carried her upstairs

I went into the spare rooms and made the beds for the boys,  I searched in the linen cupboard for a duvet and pillow for Ed so he can sleep on the couch

Once I was done I said night to everyone and went up to Megs room

I went through the door and Megan was up in her bed,  knees pulled up to her chin

I got onto the bed and sat infront of her

"I'm scared Matt" I hated seeing the love of my life braking before my eyes

"What of sweetie" I placed my hands on her knees and she flinced slightly

"I don't want to close my eyes because everytime I do I see Maddie or you or everyone leaving me and telling me they hate me"

I got up and took my jeans off and changed into my sweats

I went to the other side of the bed and got in with her