SPROUTED DESIRE
by DYRNEVAIA
And so the seed of admiration
grew to something more, deeper, stronger
...
I was already drowned
before I could move out
It sprouted desire
before I came to realize
Consumed with fire
Embraced by ire
Could love still find its line?
**Sneak Peek**
Ni hindi man lang siya natinag sa aking pag-iyak. Nanlulumo akong napayuko at parang musmos na nagpahid ng luha.
His eyes were engulfed with the coldness that I couldn't stand staring at for too long. He remained standing in front of me with arms crossed above his taut chest.
"Noon..." Panimula niya. "Noong ako ang nagmamakaawa, pinansin mo ba Cresencia?" Malamig ang kaniyang boses na halos magpatigas sa aking kalamnan. "Nagbulag-bulagan ka kahit pa lumuhod na ako mahabol ka lang. Pero ni hindi ka tumigil—"
"I had my reasons back then, okay?! I had no choice!" Napataas ang aking boses dala nang matinding emosyon.
"Meron. Marami. Kung gusto mo talaga, magagawan mo ng paraan." Agap niya na lalong nagpahina sa akin.
Mahigpit akong napahawak sa aking leeg dahil tila hindi na ako makasagap ng hangin sa baga. He was... different now. Colder and scarier.
"W-wala na ba akong babalikan?" Napapaos kong tinig, hindi alam bakit 'yon ang nanulas sa bibig.
If he'd think something from what I uttered, then let it be. I just wanted to see my son... dying for his presence to be caged by my arms.
His eyebrows lifted. Ni ang kakitaan man lang sana ng awa at pagkahabag ay wala sa kaniyang mukha.
