Semester at Seas BxB (Staten Krown)

14

Patience had done this to me.

I knew she was coming up with something...but this was her highlight.

Betrayal is something that always seemed so damn foreign to me. How could this happen? I found myself walking down the hall in a midst of anger and frustration. The person I cared about most in the world was with some other chick.

It just made our love...the love that we had both sworn would last forever, seem so mortal. For once it seemed so regular. For once Amir just seemed like a regular man.

I got to her Felicia's door.

It was complete silent. They were probably not there...but then again, they probably were. I stood there just looking at the door. I stood there just wondering if I should knock or just ...if...

Almost as though some kind of forced had opened the door, it opened.

Amir was standing on the other side of the door and he was just looking at me with these wondering eyes. He turned back into the room and then looked at me again. He looked uncomfortable with a slight sense of anger. What the hell could this be about?

"You leave me...in Your room, to come stay over here?" I ask him.

I'm mad. I'm so mad that I feel like I can really go off about the entire situation. Is this how it felt to be betrayed?
"Hey...I meant to tell you."

"What kind of shit is this? Huh! What the fuck are you doing in your ex's room at this time of night?"

He looked upset. He knew how I feel. He must have had an idea. He grabbed me by my hand and pulled me into the room. Her room was just as small as his was. She was standing up and peeping around the corner.

She had on the pajama shorts and a wifebeater...it was HIS wifebeater. She didn't look at me in my eyes when I walked in the room. Fucking slut. She just stood there on the side of the room, putting her head down. Why was the look of guilt written wall over her face for?

Why was I angry? I was I so pissed that I wouldn't to smash both their heads into the wall. How could he do this to me?

He told me he loved me.

"I love you, but..." he explained.

He was saying it again. I didn't get this. My heart was sunk underneath my stomach and hidden somewhere in my large intestines. My entire mouth went dry as though I hadn't drunken anything for days on end.

"God...I don't want to know."

I sat down on the floor right where I was standing. I used to sit down a lot when I was younger and Patience had ratted me out to my mother so I didn't know what else to do. I would just sit down on the floor and sway front and back.

I was swaying now...front and back...like a clock's pendulum; confused by time.

"Chauncey...I didn't lie...I really do care about you," he explained.

He wasn't looking at me either. He just kept staring at the floor. He was beating around the bush. He wasn't doing a good job about it either. He wasn't making me feel any better. Why was he telling me these things? Why was he making the inevitable seem so hard to get at?
"It's over isn't it?" I asked him, "Hello...is it? Huh...answer me."

It was no point to do that. My stomach was turning. I looked up to see only lowered eyes. Guilty son-of-a-bitches, thinking that lowering there eyes would help. Two minutes after I leave this room they'd not think another thought about it.

A minute has passed.

"I said...is it over?" I repeated.

"Yes. I can't be with you any longer," Amir finally admitted.