'anne with an e' imagines and preferences

always | billy andrews

request by @SelenaAndGermany

pda is my least favorite thing in the world. especially when it comes to josie and billy. every day, right when i walk into the schoolhouse, they're holding hands, and sneaking kisses. i'm not okay with that.

before josie even knew he existed, he was my best friend. our families have been close friends ever since we were born, and we grew up together. he was my favorite person in the world, the one i knew i could tell anything...

...except the fact that i'm in love with him.

but never mind that right now. he's with josie pye. when they started dating, she told billy she didn't want him hanging out with me anymore. he was hesitant to agree, but he did nevertheless. i can remember it vividly...

"i'm sorry. i can't talk to you anymore," billy said. he couldn't look me in the eyes.

"wh-what? why?" i asked in barely a whisper. my eyes teared up, and i could feel my face get hot.

"because i'm dating josie, and i have to respect her wishes," he replied softly. i shook my head.

"that not right." he nodded, but took a step back from me.

"i know. i'm sorry," he whispered, and with that, he was gone.

today it was the same thing. right when i walked into the schoolhouse, they were holding hands, and he was whispering something in her ear. she giggled, and i could feel myself cringing.

it's worse when class actually starts. josie and billy sit across from each other, in the same row, so they're always staring at each other.

then the note passing starts. you look so pretty today, and i love you so much, and i wish i could talk to you. i sit behind josie, and it practically makes me gag.

the whole situation just sucks, and i miss my best friend. i'm sure he doesn't miss me back, though.

time skip
it's been a week, and something's changed. josie isn't as glued to billy as she used to be. she's actually seeming quite distant.

i walked into school today to see her actually brushing him off her. i furrowed my brows, trying to think of why she's acting this way.

who would ever want to push billy away?

i sat down at my desk and talked to tillie. she sits next to me, and is one of my closest friends.

"so, what's going on with josie and billy?" she asked me in a hushed tone. i shrugged.

"i don't know. i don't talk to billy anymore, remember?" i replied with a bitter taste in my mouth. tillie nodded.

"i remember. i'm sorry about that whole thing, josie shouldn't be jealous of you," tillie said.

"what? she's jealous of me?" i asked, awfully confused. tillie's eyes widened.

"you didn't know? billy was practically in love with you for the past two years! but he tried to move on, because he thought you'd never feel the same way, and now he's with josie!" tillie explained. my heartbeat quickened as thoughts raced through my head.

"tillie, why didn't you tell me before?"

"i thought you knew! it was so obvious he had feelings for you." tillie shrugged and turned back to the board; mr. phillips had just arrived.

the whole day, i couldn't stop thinking about billy. since when was billy one to bottle up his feelings? never, that's when!

i glanced at him, but he had his eyes on josie. she had her eyes on someone else. her eyes were on gilbert. (ok don't attack me for this i know gil wouldn't be like this or go for josie but i need him to for the story.)

something odd was happening. gilbert and josie were giving each other looks that only josie and billy should give each other.

lunch came and passed, and josie was as rude as always. ever since her and billy started dating, she absolutely hates my guts. i honestly don't know what i did to make her hate me so much, but then again, doesn't she hate everyone?

class was dismissed, and i put away my books as slow as possible. i didn't like being shoved into the group of kids all rushing to the door. that's when i heard screaming.

"what do you mean, 'it's not like that'?! i just walked in on you two kissing!" it was billy's voice, and it was coming from the coat room.

i stopped putting my books away, praying they didn't know i was there. i slowly crept up to the doorway, and what i saw was insane.

josie pye was standing in the corner with gilbert's arm around her waist. billy was standing across the room with his face red as a tomato. when he saw me, his angry expression broke into a sad one.

"y/n," he whimpered. i couldn't resist his face. i crept into the room, and josie scoffed.

"see? i knew it. you've always loved her. it was never me," she sneered. billy's face fell, but i put my hand on his shoulder.

"it's over, josie. you and i are done," billy said.

"i agree," josie said rather rudely, and she turned back to talk to gilbert.

"come, let's go," i said to billy. he nodded, and we walked into the autumn air.

as we walked, i kept glancing at billy to see if he was alright. i couldn't deny that my heart skipped when josie said he always loved me.

"i'm sorry about josie," i whispered to him. he shrugged, and looked at me.

"it's alright. it's not like i didn't see it coming," he replied. that made my heart break. no one should have to feel that way when they're dating someone.

suddenly billy stopped. his face turned pink as he looked at me. i raised an eyebrow.

"i still love you. and i'm so stupid for not telling you before. josie was right when she said i never loved her, i was just trying to get over you," he confessed. my heart jumped to my throat.

"billy..."

"i know you don't love me back, and that's—"

"no, you don't understand! i do love you! i have for two years!" i exclaimed, so relieved he finally told me. tears sprung to my eyes as i threw my arms around him.

"i just want you," he whispered in my ear. i pulled back far enough to finally kiss him. he snaked his arms tighter around my waist.

finally.

ok so i loved this idea sosososososo much but i feel like i didn't write it good enough?? i've just been getting over a sickness and i feel like my writing is getting bad lol ily guys xx