shit maybe I miss you

I miss you buddy..!

Liam's pov
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After the boyz took a lonng time to response..
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They agreed..
Well I knew lou for.... Like..... far enough time..
And I know what he's doing..
Or trying to say
I know this would be neither about "when 1D is coming back"
nor....
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O my God
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Only two things can make us sad whenever we talked or met..
1.It's about the band..!
And
2.it's about...
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Mmyyyyyyy
Godddddddddd
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It's ZAYN
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Yeah... this time I'm absolutely sure that it's not about 1D ..
Bcoz we(me and lou)really solved this out ..
When we were talking about him as a "judge" in the X-factor
We did talk about a lot of things but what I quite remember was something we didn't complete talking about coz lou's phone rang and we stopped talking..
It was something had to do with ZAYN
And I knew before he say his name
It's obvious..
Coz lou struggles a lot and takes a deep breath and do strange moves with his hands then takes a loooong time to speak one or two words when he want to talk about something or someone may makes the person who you talk with gets sad or upset !
And with everyone there is a different way to make them feel bad...for sure !!
But lou knew ....
Nothing....And I mean Nothing
Can make me feel bad or sad more than someone I really miss....
Which is..
The..one and only..
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My friend
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My best friend
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My best man
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And my bro
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ZAYN
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Only God knows..how much I was mad at him ...upset from him....and sad about what he did to me...
He left...without a word..
I asked him a lot about if he was happy being around....bcoz as you know ...he was the only Muslim lad in this circle..so I thought that he might feel a little bit strange with us at the beginning....but when he get along with us ... he was happy .... then when he had that girl friend..his life changed ..!
He was so happy with us ... then suddenly...everything gone
It all depends on if he was happy with her or not..
All the time that you see Zayn in it had bad mood it's bcoz of ferrie...!
Or was she carrie...!
I don't remember..!
Soo...if you saw where we are tour movie you will know what I'm talking about..
Yeah he had fight with his girlfriend..
He was in a very bad mood ....that he didn't want to talk with any one of us ...
He usually does this..
And when you know he feel better ..?!
When he usually come and hug me ...or whisper something to me about one of the fans and about stuff ....on the stage..!
And Even if he hadn't seen her
They sometimes have fights on the phone ..!
She is stupid ... I know..!?
I mean my girlfriend never fight with me on the phone...she miss me ...then how could she fight with me if she really love me !.... you know !
I always tried to be nice with Zayn..
I even didn't like his girlfriend..bcoz I thought she used him ....but never told him that ... bcoz I saw him happy ...!
I insisted on making his engagement party on my house....juss to make him happy ...
He was like a little brother for me .... even if he was the older...!
Sometimes when he get upset ... he calls me
And then He ask for my advice.....
I cared for him alot
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Especially in the last days
Coz I had a brotherly feeling that he might do something stupid...!
I juss knew it...
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I saw him a lot in the last days with us..!
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Sitting in the corner of the room , catching his diary and a pen , looking at the window sometimes..
he never catch me looking at him...
so he was sometimes mumbling the things he wrote ..
trying to sing it in a very low tone
I swear I asked him ....like for a billion times
"Are you ok here.. ZAYN..!"
"Yeas Liam for the 5th time today...and the billion times entire my life..! ARE YOU OK LIAM...?!" He said that so fondly and at the end he questioned with a worrie voice..his words still in my mind till now....
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when people started saying that ZAYN hates 1D and he says that : if he was in a date with a girl ....he'd rather listen to some shit music more than hearing 1D songs..!
I never wanted to know if this was true or it wasn't ......(even tho I knew he didn't like the music we played for along time ago)....and heard about Harry replaying for him ....
But I never checked it out..
Coz I really didn't want another reason to make me
Upset,sad,mad
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Yeah...
so I juss congrats him for his first single
It really was smashing "as lou say" ...
(Yeah ... I did see the auditions of this week)..
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That was different for me !...
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So he congrats me back on the brits award we received for dmd mv ....
I really was happy for him ....
He still like my brother...
He said that I'm the closest one to him..
And that made me happy..
Bcoz he didn't forgot me..!
" I miss you buddy..! "
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I hope he is ok..!
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Bcoz louis got me all worried now..
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"We are going to baliiiii"
Niall said that with a happy tone ...
I closed the phone and prepared to fly
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I arrived to my flat..with some friends..
Waiting for my mates to come..
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"There he is ... It's Louis Tomlinson everyone..!"
I was hugging him...
" Oi oi "
He said that loudly
"Soo how are you man..?!"
" Good ..what about the birthday man..? "
" Cool .. so where is the rest..?! "
I said with an eyebrow raised..
"I'm sorry lee..!"
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"WHAT..?!"
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I hope you like it
And ... I hope you focus on the picture of "zayn"
..Up..!
..Enjoy..