shit maybe I miss you

I'll keep on my life !!!

Niall's pov
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I thought that they won't even remember my birthday ..
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thanxy lads ... love you so much...
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haha .. I know I know ..
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it's been two weeks ...
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since my bd ...
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and I should've reacted alittle bit more earlier ...
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as everybody knows..
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" I had tour to be done ... and now I'm resting... I don't know why I'm talking out loud ...! " 😅
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I've been resting so well these last days doing my favourite things..
like..
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I like eating lods of food !!
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I like playing on my guitar a random tunes !!
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and
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I like to watch our video diaries ...!!
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it's make me feel better...
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even tho at the moment that I close it ...
I feel bad again...
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but .. I like being happy for alittle  while ..
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coz...all this..is juss..it's
all too much on me to handle it ...
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I juss.. can't take anymore...
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juss if there is another damn thing will happen to them ....
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I'll fall apart ...
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the only one thing  that make me stand upon this is ....
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our fans...
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who always were with us ...
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they were always their for us ....
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they took us so high and I can't be enough thankful to them ...
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for the rest of my life...
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they remind me of our beginning...
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the x factor
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the diaries
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the tours
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the times with all our friends
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ok ok ..
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I know I know...
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I won't quote anymore...🙂
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ok now I'm bored .. and
I want to do something..
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like.....
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to make Liam and Louis talk together again..
or to make them get back to the normal mood let's say ...
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now after what Louis told Liam...
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nobody dared to ask him....
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so ..
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I think I'm going to risk my life and my frienship with him ...
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or
I'll juss wait for the next thing that Louis will do bcoz he is going to Ibiza today ...
and he won't do anything till he is back ..
and Liam is going to travel the next week ... so it's gonna be along calm week there ...!
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well I loved the second choice more than the first .... sooo I'm juss gonna ...
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ehhhh ya know ...
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I'll keep on my life !!!
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I hope you like it
btw the underlined word are songs or sentences from songs ☺
..enjoy..