Crumpled Papers

Oct. 21 2018

It's not that I don't wanna go out I do I truly do. But my legs don't wanna move and my body is too numb to even feel excitement. My heart is too heavy to even think about what I have. I can't think straight when all my thoughts begin with you. Stupid videos and posts of people being happy and having someone they can call yours. The problem is, I could find someone I know I can. But I simply don't want anyone but you.

It's hard to explain when nothing can ever fix this. I try really hard but nothing can erase it, seems like the harder I work the more I break. I wanna get away and forget about everything.

Can't wait for the moment my name appears on a screen and awards getting handed out for me. You see, I've been waiting since I was 10 to see the sparkle of a movie sign. Shining letters of a movie I created.

I'm just gonna sit here and wait for the time to tell you, I have poems, letters, texts, and even songs about you. All I have to do to press send or start talking. But right now it's good so I'll wait a little longer