I don't know any of my emotions right now. I have one person I used to have such strong feelings for but now every time I see or hear his name my heart and blood boil. I hate hate hate his name and probably him too, I hate how he acts and how he treats people, shuts them out and doesn't let them in. Yes I do that but still it isn't fair not one bit! And God I hate the fact I go to school with him it stresses me out to the point where I don't even wanna sit at lunch knowing he can see me. I just wanna scream "I don't like you anymore dude!" And maybe then I'll get closure because I now don't like him, and I miss Quoc. As a friend truly as a friend, feelings may still be there but when you fall as hard as I did for someone, the feelings won't magically go away. And Ben I have no clue I'm actually confused, I may have 3 boys on my brain but only one stands out above the rest as the perfect person. And hey, my life isn't over yet, my youth remains, maybe soon it'll get better
