love me

first day of senior year

ik its been a minute but ive been reading other books, and i got discouraged because i thought id never be that good, then i thought I'll never know until i try. sooooo im back and i have my iced coffee and im listening to drake so now im ready :)! i hope whoever reads this enjoys it

aaliyahs pov
"get cha ass up now" i heard my sister holler from the other side of the door. I rolled my eyes as i rolled outta bed. once i sat up i wince in pain, i lifted my shirt to see the cause of my pain i had black and purple bruises scattered all over my body. i sighed heavily as i got up to start my daily routine. i walked over to my mirror attachted to my dresser, i looked at my body in disgust. my chubby face, all this cellulite in my thighs and butt my hanging stomach.

i thought "who could ever love someone like me,look at me.im gay but i have to pretend that im straight so my own mother looks at me like she loves me. that doesnt matter anyway shes too worried about her drugs to give a flying fuck about me. i also hates donté's bitch ass!"

i stopped my self pity as i grabbed my towel off the back of my door then i headed to the bathroom. i turned on my speaker and started blasting Tory Lanez as i started my hygiene. after my amazing shower as im still wrapped in my towel i grab my tree tea oil and rub it between my hands as i undid my bantu knots.

i picked up my pick and picked it out. i was debating on whether i should leave it as a fro or add twist or space buns. i settled on 2 little space buns in the front of my head. i grabbed my got to be glued gel and SWOOPED *summerella's voice* my edges after i was satisfied with my hair, i walked to my closet to try to find an outfit.

i decided to wear baggy white t-shirt with black distressed skinny jeans and my rainbow colored vans. i found hoops on my dresser and decided why not wear em. i sprayed my warm vanilla sugar perfume, and then i lotioned my arms and the parts of my legs that was showing because i didnt feel like taking my pants off. i looked in the mirror and was kinda satisfied with my outfit and thought to my self " if i dont feel beautiful in the inside might as well attempt to look good on the outside."

i grabbed my bookbag and my phone and my gold necklace that my sister gave me. i checked the time and it was 6:50. i headed downstairs and my amazing sister greeted me with breakfast. i haven't eaten in 2 days so i was excited. i grabbed the food as i told my sister " good morning" with a smile showing my braces and all. she told me good morning back. as i was eating i was debating on whether not i wanted to throw it up or just not eat for the rest of the day. i just chose not to eat i hated sticking my fingers in my mouth, but hey i mean i gotta do what i gotta do.

alana snapped me outta my thoughts " un hello are you even listening to me?" " uh no my bad, can you say it again."

she rolled her eyes and asked for the second time "how'd you sleep last night?" i did a small smile and said "okay." i checked the time realizing i had to go pick up gen if we wanted to be on time. i hugged and kissed lana on the cheek and grabbed my keys, bookbag, and my phone and went to my car quickly.

i unlocked my phone to text gen.
me- hey im otw
day 1 👑❤- okay im almost ready
me- ill be there in 10
day 1👑❤-okay

i plugged the aux into my phone and blasted money but first i wanted to stop at mcdonalds and get an iced coffee because..... i love coffee and i need it in order to deal with these hooligans. i ordered large french vanilla iced coffee. otw to gens house im sipping and rapping along with cardi " cold ass bitch, i give ross chills ten different looks and my looks all kill. i kiss him in the mouth i fill all gills. he eat in the car, thats meals on wheels." i practically scream i pulled up to gens house and she was outside waiting.

she ran to the car got in quickly and hugged me tight i winced in pain from the bruises she pulled away smiling. she squealed like a little girl when she realized what was playing "you know this my shit!" i laughed as i began to pull out. " lmaoo bitch i know." we both began to rap " i was born to flex diamonds on my neck i like boarding jets i like morning sex but nothing in this world i like more than checks!" we scream. she grabs my phone playing honey by kehlani. i smile listening to the words wishing someone thought of me like this.

genesis realized and asked when i was gonna come out and break up with donté. she knew about why i dated donté. fear washed my face at the thought of breaking up with him, he would surly put me in the hospital. we pulled into the school parking lot. i parked and looked at her i bit the inside cheek to keep from crying. i knew why i couldn't, but no one else knew why. everything that he put me through just played like a slideshow in my mind.

" im fat." " no one can pick me up." " they're not gonna like me." " who could ever love a ugly pig like me." " no one wants someone as damaged as me." " no one even knows i like girls."

as if gen was reading my mind she grabs my hand, and rubbed my knuckles. "aaliyah any girl would be lucky to have you as a girlfriend. you're funny, beautiful, unique, and so kind. you have a laugh that sounds like a dying seal but it brightens up the room just like your amazing smile even with your metal mouth having ass." genesis cooed to me. i chuckled and hugged her i couldnt ask god for a better best friend. thank you for sending her to me.

we got outta the car and walked into this dumb ass hellhole. i dead ass hate this place just gimmie my damn diploma. i pulled out my phone and checked my schedule i had English but gen had calculus first. we said a quick goodbye and went our seperate ways. we only had a few classes together as i made my way to my locker; i noticed this fine i mean puddle in my pum pum fine girl.

i started starring hoping she wouldn't catch me of course she did. she flashed me the most beautiful smile ive ever seen. i gave her a quick grin i grabbed my airpods put them in and blasted toni romiti.

i thought " one day ima be deaf if i keep listening to music so loud but idgaf though it helps me escape." i grabbed my English textbook with my notebook and pencil bag. i put my bookbag in my locker and closed it, and preceded on my journey to the english hall.

i heard all of the damn hooligans around me screaming and acting like they have no damn home training. i tuned them out as i cut my music all the way up. i hate these ignit niggas, i love music its like my getaway drug. it helps me escape from reality along with reading. ahhhhh reading and listening to music a match made in heaven!!

i finally made it to english and took a seat in the back, i got comfortable and went to check instagram and post shit on my spam and text people back. i heard the bell ring i cut my music down and began to listen to the teacher.

" good morning class my name is mr.brown and welcome to honor english! now class-" he was cut short because that same girl came in " ahh nice of you to finally join us. why dont you go on ahead and introduce yourself to the class."

i hope you enjoyed this chapter im tired so ima nap but dont forget to comment and vote.☺