love me

the start of something new?

liyah pov

the next morning i was woken up my by sistsr gently shaking me and saying "babygirl wake up its time to wake up." i groan as i get up and go into the bathroom throwing my hair up into a ponytail and brushing my teeth along with my other hygiene shit ofc while blasting my music.

as im naked im looking into the mirror exam my body. its covered in bruises and marks old and new. i sigh and think i mean who could really ever love me. maybe donté is right, maybe this is the best that I'll get.  i start to pick my body apart from head to toe. i hate my forehead and how huge it is. i hate how chubby my face is. my nose is too wide and fat. i hate my broad football player shoulders. i hate my stomach and my fat rolls on it. i hate my legs that are now covered with bruises and cuts and scars that ive done myself. i mean look at my fucked up body i mean who could ever love this.

i walk out of the bathroom and head towards my closet. and  picked out black leggings, my long sleeve black shirt, my purple cargo jacket. i look around for my shoes and found my white chucks. i look at the time and genesis texted me telling me she doesn't need a ride today shes going with her boo. i also have a text from donté telling me i better behave myself if i know whats good for me. he also said i better get ready when i come home from school today because of yesterday.

i groan im so done with this nigga i cant keep doing this to myself, i know i deserve better. im so drain emotionally, mentally and physically from fucking with him. since today is friday ima do it today but i just need to figure out how and so it can be done safely im not ready to die yet. i would love to be with audreys beautiful self instead but she probably doesnt like me or want even want me. i decided that i wanted gens help or just her support. i was gonna tell her at school today and she was gonna hold me and we're gonna binge watch big time rush on hulu and eat pizza chips and ice cream after i break up with him.

i go downstairs told lana "good morning" and thn i hugged and kissed her and then left for school. ofc im connecting my aux to blast my music because music is my getaway drug. i play eric ballinger and remind her comes on and i add that to my "sex song playlist" i mean sex songs are the best idgaf lmaoo. but then look what you made me done by drake comes on and i pulled up to the school kinda early so i sat in my car and listened to the lyrics.

"you love me, and i love. your head hurts mine does too. and its just words and they cut deep but its our world, its just the two of us. im lisenting to the words and i say out loud" tuh i wish i had real love and it could be us against the world."

i turned the car off and walked into the hellhole aka school. i see genesis waiting for me near the front doors. i ran to her she laughed and met me halfway and we embraced each other. today she smelt like coconuts and i loved it. "bitch you smell like coconuts and happiness" " thanks thot and how does happiness smell?" she asked with a confused look "like you" " lol okay well how'd you doing?" gen gen asked and i said " ill tell you later doing government." she nodded her head.

jaylen comes from the car walking up to us. "hey liyah" he says as he hugs me "wassup jay" i say as i hug him back. gen grabs his hand and interlocks our arms together as we walked thou the doors. as im thinking "one more day closer to graduation!!!" i smile as we walked into the hallway we said our goodbyes and departed going our seperate ways.

im still blasting my drake and from time comes on as i walk into english. i relax when i see audreys fine self sitting in the seat she sat in yesterday. she sees and flashs me that beautiful smile. and i smile back and make my way to my seat.

i hope this is good and y'all are enjoying it. its actually kinda fun doing this.