Reincarnation of a human to be turned to a god

Sorry

First of all I must say that this is all real, nothing in this is fake, this is my future I guess

Guys I'm very sorry, I'm really sorry, but this might be the actual end of this book and all of my books

My father's company is firing employees since they don't have enough money, and they're only keeping the ones that are skilled, so, my father might just be one of them

My parents are acting like my father got fired, moreover they're already preparing to exit the country, including the expenses and the earnings

I've only got 2 more months until I know whether my family will leave or not, the internet will be cut within this month or 2 months

I'm really scared, I'm leaving the school I'm attending where my friends for 4 years attend, and my best friends are also gonna leave, even if I stay and my father is not fired, I'll still be sad

I got no one, my friends are the only ones I'm close to, no one to make me happy, I'm somewhat distanced from my parents since I don't talk that much

The only ones I talk some much to are my best friends, they're fun to talk to, but now they're leaving, including me

Since I'll soon have no internet, I soon wouldn't be able to chat with my friends and post chapters

I'm scared, lonely, and sad, I'm afraid that this might be the end of everything, all of my personal accomplishments are just in the internet

From writing books to having friends, all of them will soon be gone, crushed, I want to escape from this but I can't, this is reality, I want to deny all of this and stay in the fantasy world forever, but I just can't escape the future no matter what I do

I'm literally crying while I made this notice, I cant hold it back, my tears are dripping from my eyes, why must this world be cruel?,  I can't handle all of this, my chest is tightening, my heart feels very heavy

I'm scared

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry

Somebody, please, God, save me