My Ex's Boyfriend [BxB]

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Why can't you be like the other kids?

I forced myself to wake up before the dream continues. I was catching on my breath because somehow forcing myself to wake up took all of my energy, I was sweating too. I have always hated it when they appeared in my dreams. Thinking about them will never do any good. I wasn't sure why they have been appearing in my dreams lately. I clenched my fist and my thoughts were full of anger. They made my life miserable and I hate them so much.

I glanced at the time through my phone which was right beside my pillow and it was still early but I somehow, wanted to take a a walk outside. I put on my jacket, slipping my feet inside my slides and grabbed my phone before getting off of my apartment. I walked down the street as I got out of the apartment area, pulling out my hoodie over my head so no one could see my face. I put on my AirPods and just continued walking.

The cold wind brushed my skin and I shivered.

And I started to feel like there were eyes on me since I've been passing more than five dark alleyways. I mean, I wouldn't mind if I get kidnapped because I want to be dead, anyways.

I was a bit upset no one kidnapped me, yet but I got myself to the park I went to yesterday. It was still dark but it felt really nice being outside so early. This place brings back plenty of memories of me and Emily. We met when just turned fifteen, which was two years ago. We bumped into each other at the grocery store and she was interested in me. We used to hang here just when she ditched school which was pretty often and sometimes I wonder how did she even survived without getting caught.

I noticed the street lights flickering for quite a while now and I started to feel uneasy, so I shifted on the swings I was sitting on and my eyes roamed around the park. I took off my AirPods and shoved them inside my pocket and enjoyed the morning breeze. The sky started to lighten up a bit when I looked up at it. One of many reasons why I always go to this park was because it was on top of a hill and the view is really nice. The city could be seen from this park and just watching the sky is just really calming and relaxing.

"What are you doing here this early?"

Oh, no, the time has come? Am I getting kidnapped and killed?

I was already accepting my fate but I turned to see Jake. My heart dropped and I was upset, again. I frowned at my own thoughts and brushed it off to talk with Jake. He came closer to me and sat on the swing beside mine. He looked at me, waiting for me to say something. There was an awkward moment but Jake broke it off my asking me why was I out so early.

"I would ask you the same thing" I said, playing with the the string of my hoodie.

"Emily and I argued earlier and she just wanted space for a while," He said and explained the reasons why they fought. For some reason, I was a bit concerned on how long has he been outside.

"So, are you telling me that you have been outside since last night?" I asked

He took a few moment to answer but he laughed it off, "No, not really. I just want to clear my mind off for a bit."

I nodded and looked away. What do you actually mean by "not really"?

He suddenly pulled my hoodie off my head and I felt my face warmed up as he said, "Don't hide your face from me. Now why are you up so early? It's dangerous, you know."

If you know it's dangerous, why are you here too?

I shook the thoughts away and answered his question, "I had a nightmare and I thought taking a walk would help me calm down."

"Did it help?"

"No."

"Why not?"

"Because you're here."

"Anyways, tell me about your dream."

"The past," I mumbled and bit my bottom lip.

"Oh," Was all he said.

"How did you guys met?" I suddenly found myself asking this question, changing the subject because I don't really want him to ask me more about my dream.

He ruffled his blonde hair, making it more messier and sighed, "Long story."

I snorted, "Then make it short."

"She visited her cousin Raphael in Michigan and I just happened to be there since I'm pretty close with him. She told me that she was interested in me and offered to come here with her so I did."

"Cool."

"Have you kissed her before?" He asked, out of a sudden. I find it pretty strange for him to ask me that since I am Emily's ex partner. He shouldn't be hanging out with me right now.

"Why do you wanna know?"

"You guys were together for two years." He stated.

Well, why does it matter if I have ever kissed her or not?

I just stayed silent for a bit, not sure what I am feeling about what he just asked me. I really didn't know whether I was angry or I was pissed. I stared at some rock I was kicking slightly and muttered, "No."

"Interesting."

"Why are you asking me this?" I asked, starting to sound a bit pissed.

I saw his smile dropped a bit and I couldn't read his expression, "Nothing much. Just curious."

I frowned and nodded, I stood up as I see few cars starting to pass by. "I gotta go"

"Wait" Jake said, standing up too.

I raised my head to look at him. "Yes?"

"Do you have plans later?" he asked.

I lied, "Yeah, why?"

"Nothing"

"Alright, see you around then," I said and started walking back to my apartment. My mind suddenly came up with why did he asked me about have I ever being kissed on the lips. Why does it matter to him?

And thinking about him somehow made me feel a bit nervous. As if I am looking forward to see him a bit more often. I shoved the thoughts away and got myself into the elevator as soon as I got to my apartment. I walked out and saw someone leaning over the wall beside my apartment door.

He looked up from his phone as he heard my footsteps and I said, "I almost forgot you existed, tutor."

"Fuck you." He said and I just laughed it off, opening the door so the both of us could get inside.

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