NDKS 2 : Ruined

Episode 29 - Aliyah's Sanity

*Episode 10 (Aliyah's POV)*

"KIETH!"

Parang gumuho ang mundo ko right then and there.

Alam niya.

Alam niya lahat.

All this time!

Shit!

Tears stream down my eyes and I couldn't hold back.

I screamed his name pero hindi siya lumingon.

Hindi man lang siya huminto.

Na parang wala na siyang ikabahala.

Like there's nothing holding him back.

Hindi man lang siya tumingin sakin.

Pero kahit na ganun parin, hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong tumakbo at isigaw ang pangalan niya.

Frantically, I latched onto his arm and begged.

"Kieth! Please! Let me explain! Wala talagang namamagitan sa amin ni Yoichi! He forced me! It was an act of violence against women! Rape! That's right, he raped me! Natatakot kasi ako na may gagawin siyang masama sayo kaya ko yun nagawa! Believe me! Wala akong kasalanan! I can't lose you! I need you! Please don't leave me!"

I blurted out in a hurry.

My voice, hoarse from crying, I sob uncontrollably.

"I'll do anything! I love you! I love you! Please maniwala ka naman sa akin!"

I tug on his arm desperately, trying to get his attention.

Pleading.

Please...

Please...

Just...

Look at me.

And he did.

But his eyes remained dead.

No reaction. None.

I found myself at a loss for words. My grip loosened.

Oo, sanay na ako sa ganito.

Sanay na akong binabalewala mo. Wag mo lang akong iwan.

Pero iba 'to.

May rason ka nang iwan ako. Rason na ako mismo ang nagbigay.

At ginamit mo.

I hold back a painful stifle and my hands began to shake.

Fear and anger crept into my heart.

"Fine! I get it! You can't blame me! Sa haba ng panahon na mag asawa tayo, not once! Not once did you lay a hand on me! Hindi mo ako masisisi kung hahanap ako ng ibang makakasama sa kama! I LOVED YOU SO MUCH IT DROVE ME CRAZY, KIETH!"

I cried so loud, my voice cracked.

But even then, he didn't say anything.

"Magsalita ka naman oh!"

Please!

I'm begging you!