Deepest Darkest Secrets

Chapter 22 The innocent murderer

Hey guys. I am back. As promised, this is my longest chapter (3741). I would like to dedicate this chapter to DeltaKJStudios for voting, thank you. Disclaimer: This chapter contain abuse and gore. Not ideal for children and for faint- hearted.

You might feel uncomfortable reading some scenes. Tread carefully. You have been warned.

 If you find any mistakes in my grammar, or any doubt you guys have,  please comment. I am beginner and tend to do mistakes. Sorry for the delay, my parents don't let me touch my laptop poor me:(.

Now on with the story.

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I want to hurt myself or hurt anyone.

I think about chucking a hammer at someone's head,

or slitting someone's throat from behind.

I think about jabbing a knife in my neck,

or crushing someone's skull.

I think about burning someone alive,

or poisoning them with bleach.

They don't have to do anything to me,

they don't have to say anything to me;

they could do nice things for me,

they could say nice things to me.

And I just think about hurting them,

over and over I think about hurting them;

and the thoughts get stronger,

and it's so hard to fight them.

And I feel like I might go on a killing spree,

and in the moment it feels so right;

like it's what I'm supposed to do,

a hunger pain I need to fill.

With ****** and blood and screaming,

their screams in my mind;

only make me laugh.

It feels like my mind is possessed.

These thoughts are all disturbed,

then they subside until it's time;

for them to come back again,

and I'm always left feeling confused and frightened.

It's a struggle fighting these thoughts everyday,