WRAP IN TIME (LOSERS CLUB X READER)

•Chapter 19:"Youth"•

August of 1989,

( Saturday. 3:00 pm.)

       It has been a week since Stanley's Bar Mitzvah. Since then I have nothing to do other than just hang out by myself, practice my powers and hope that IT doesn't come out of nowhere in a wrong timing.

I was on my bed, laying and staring at my floating pillow, yes I know pillow. I was just focusing and just keep it flaoting around my room as I listen to my earphones, 'Youth by Daughters' playing as I silently watch and make multiple objects float into my room. As I did this I fiddled with my fingers as the guitar intro came on.

'Shadows settle on the place, that you left
Our minds are troubled by the emptiness
Destroy the middle, it's a waste of time
From the perfect start to the finish line'

I close my eyes, just thinking as I kept asking myself, how did I end up in here? It has been almost half a year since I ended up in here. Wondering when am I going to go back.

But do I want too? I mean my life here is perfect, no rumors, with the Losers and I got to have this sick powers. Back on the reality, I felt.....empty.

Yet I thought, if i'm in a fantasy world, then none of this is real all of the good stuff that has been happening, these abilities of mine, this life. This is what I want, and sometimes, well most of time for me, fantasies and dreams don't come true. They are just on your imaginations.

But this felt real, is this real? Are the Losers real? Am I real?

'And if you're still breathing, you're the lucky ones
'Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs
Setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting names of the lovers that went wrong
The lovers that went wrong'

'It's like, reality and my imaginary dreams just combined, in one blink. I have this amazing life myself.'

Then I take the objects down from where it belong and I lookout my window, I want to get some air. As I took my phone along with my earphones. Opening the window and as I jumped.

'We are the reckless
We are the wild youth
Chasing visions of our futures
One day we'll reveal the truth
That one will die before he gets there'

I made myself fly as I felt no gravity, making me float. I took myself up my roof and laid there as the sun glittered across my face and just let myself loosen.

'And if you're still bleeding, you're the lucky ones
'Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone
We're setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting pictures from the flood that wrecked our home
It was a flood that wrecked this'

I saw the people who walks by and cars and bikes, looking at each and every detail in it.

'Well I've lost it all, I'm just a silouhette
A lifeless face that you'll soon forget
My eyes are damp from the words you left
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest

I mumbled the song to myself as I tapped myfeet into the rythmn of it.

'And if you're in love, then you are the lucky one
'Cause most of us are bitter over someone
Setting fire to our insides for fun
To distract our hearts from ever missing them
But I'm forever missing him