Cheated and Pregnant (Editing)

11.

After that night and others to come he broke me piece by piece. He did this over and over again always finding to do it as a punishment even when I haven't done anything wrong.

It happened so many times I forgot how much time he raped me over and over again. I started to careless. I started to fight less. He was putting out the light in me and he didn't know. I didn't know how to light it back again.

Every time he would rape me and I look in the mirror I could no longer recognize myself. I was no longer the person I was. My eyes bright green eyes were dim. My skin looked pale like I haven't seen the sunlight in days and I was getting slimmer.

I am far from return. I am broken beyond repair and every time it happens I spend hours in the bathroom trying to get clean because I always felt dirty but no matter how many times I bath and bath I still felt dirty.

I started keeping my distance from Mrs Williams and I will always make sure to hide from her in the crowd. It broke me too to let her. The only person in my life I could trust. She was like my mother to me.

She made me laugh. She made me happy in those past few months and I don't know why I am avoiding her like the way I do. Maybe I don't want her to see me like this.

I wanted to be strong in front of her but I knew I didn't have the strength to do so so I stayed away from her. When it was getting harder to go to her class and she talks to me but I don't talk back so I would sometimes avoid going to her class.

It was my seventeen birthday but I didn't feel like celebrating it. I felt so dead inside. It's just a day I wish I wasn't born so I don't have to go through all this pain. I feel so empty inside. I feel so bruised and used. I feel like I am no one like I am not worthy of living.

"Grace! Grace! Can I talk to you for a second?" I knew it was Mrs Williams calling me but I walked faster down the hallway. "Grace!" She was shouting and running towards me to catch me up. I would run too but that would look stupid so I continued to walk faster and faster.

I didn't walked fast enough. I thought when she finally caught up to me and grabbed ahold of my hands. " Grace." She said breathlessly. "I'm sorry did I do something wrong ?" She asked worried and confused.

"No Mrs Williams. It's just me. I can't be friends with you anymore and I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier." I said to her sighing.

"It's okay I just wanted to see if you are okay and give you this." She said taking something out of her pocket.

"What for?" I asked.

"It's a charm bracelet and i wanted to give you it for your birthday." I was shocked when she said this. I can't believe she remembered my birthday.

"Thanks Mrs Williams and I'm sorry you didn't have to buy me a gift but I can't take it it's too beautiful." I told her.

I don't believe something as beautiful as this could belong to someone like this. I don't deserve it. I don't deserve her kindness.

"It's okay take it I insist and it's rude to turn down a gift on your birthday." She told me smiling but sadly for me I couldn't return that smile. I lost the will to smile a long time ago when he broke every will in my body to be happy. This is the first time I am talking to some in months and it's been awhile since I spoke words. The only thing I have done these days is cry my self to sleep.

"Thanks Mrs Williams." I took the bracelet from her hand.

"Are you okay Grace?" She asked.