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Nightmares

Once again I open my eyes to find myself in the same room with the same bright lights, no windows, no furniture, my hands over my head with shackles around my wrist. Wait both of my hands? If I remember correctly only one was shackled before. How long was I out? And what did they do? All of a sudden I'm cold, my body has now become aware of the cool air wrapping itself around me.

I look down to find myself naked. With bite marks covering my chest and my eyes start to sting.

"No" I breath out. Barely audible, but it somehow managed to echo in the empty room

"No, no, no, no, Noooo!!!!." I start out saying but my voice rises till I'm now screaming.

"What did you do?! Who the fuck are you?!" Nothing I'm meet with silence.

No

Not again

This cant be happening

Please no

Please be a dream, please be a dream.

I close my eyes with the attempt of making myself wake up and not be here but nothing. I shake my head frantically trying to snap out of it but again nothing. My chest starts to constrict, I feel a lump form in my throat and my eyes start to sting but I dont want to open my eyes. A whimper escapes me. And I have no other option but to accept the fact that it happened.

I open my eyes to see Reaper standing infront of a door just at the foot of the small bed that can only fit me.

A sob escapes my lips and I hate my self for being this weak, I hate myself for being caught, I hate myself for not staying with Alpha.

Alpha.

If he didnt want me before he sure as hell wont want me now. Again, I am going through this again. I should come to terms with the fact that this is me, stop fighting who I was meant to be this whole time.

It's time to let go.

Reaper steps closer to me, making me flinch and try to bring my legs up to my chest but something is keeping them where they are and I dont have to look to know what it is.

He keeps moving slowly trying to build up the tension, I dont know how much more tension he wants but I'm sure that he's getting it by the sick smirk on his face.

"I missed you so much baby" he says while removing his clothes.

"It wasnt the same. But now that your awake I'm sure you'll make it up to me." With that he places himself between my legs and my eyes dart to the ceiling.

Please be a dream, please be a dream.

I keep chanting in my head hoping that it will all go away. Hoping I was just imagining this.

And then I feel his hand roam my body with no sense of care. It harshly slides down my curves gredaly grabbing and pulling where it could. My eyes start to leak, tears run down my face and I bite my lip with the pointless attempt to keep quiet to not give him the satisfaction of hearing me protest to his sick body hovering over mine.

"Call me daddy, babydoll." He says and that's when it all clicks in, flash back after flash back from when I was younger, he is my uncle's friend the one that would come over when my uncle was busy he would come to 'feed and make sure I was ok' but that's not what he did, he would come and give my dad money wich my dad would take and go to the bar not even thinking about the fact that he was leaving us alone with this man. Thankfully my sister was to small to interest them but I was afraid, so very much afraid of them and not being able to make it out of this, but now, now I'm afraid of what would be left if I did, of making it out alive but not having any strength to keep going of ending up being a body roaming, an empty vessel just being. I would be nothing.

I will lose everything I had left wich wasnt much, which isn't much.

I need to get out, I need to move, I need to run, get to Jamie, Get to Lana, Get to Alpha, I need to....

My thoughts are cut off with the pain caused by him roughly pushing himself into me I let out a scream not being able to contain it. And he starts pounding in to me like he had something to prove. I was a sinner and he was the Devil punishing me for straying from the path of good, making me suffer making me relive the worst moments of my life again.

My own personal hell. He kept pounding and grunting and I couldn't take the pain anymore. I was starting to pass out, my eyes started to close and then there was a sting on my cheek and my eyes jerked open.

"Stay with daddy, babydoll." He sings out breathlessly and I start to cry again.

Please find me, please find me!

I dont know who I'm asking but I'm hoping my prayers are heard by someone, anyone. Hope, it can only last so long and I'm not sure I have enough to survive this nightmare again.

A hand wraps around my neck and starts to squeeze, I begin to trash around trying to get him to remove it while I sob to my self.

"Just like that babydoll, keep moving just like that." And I stop he was enjoying my struggle. Small black dots start to cloud my vision and I want to so badly let go my body starts to fight it trying to keep me awake. Not wanting me to give up its start to shake. My mouth opens trying to get air into my lungs, my arms start to pull and fight the restraints holding them up making my boobs bounce wich catches his eyes and his mouth comes down to bite on my nipples. I try to scream but nothing comes out.

With one last grunt his body slumped onto mine and his hand leaves my neck. I take in a big gulp of air and wince at the pain it caused. I can still feel him inside me, his weight on my body not allowing me to move an inch , not that I could anyways.

After a couple of minutes he gets up, gets dressed and walks out of the makeshift room and leaves me there alone, naked and crying.

Please some one, anyone, please find me!

"Please, please let me go, please I wont tell anyone, I wont say anything but please let me go" I try to scream out but it comes out as a whisper and only hurts my throat more then it already does. I lift my head up trying to look between my legs I feel something coming out of me but I cant see if it's his semen or blood.

My head falls back to the bed and my eyes close on their own, my body finally let's go. Letting me rest but I dont want that, I dont want to rest, I dont want to sleep. If I rest hes gonna do it all over again, and again, and again and that is only gonna keep breaking me. I dont want to break, I dont want to lose myself, I dont want to be here, I want to be with Kevin.

Please Kevin, find me.

And then everything went black, no pain, no sound, no sadness. Just emptiness and no feeling. Just a whole lot of nothingness surrounded and consumed me.

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