Mesperyian

Cravings and Movies

  I've been at the club house for a few week now. It was really hard at first, me not wanting to come out the room, the guys not being allowed anywhere near me because I would have a panic attack and always being hungry didnt really help. God was I always hungry its currently 1:00 am sunday and I'm making my way to the kitchen. It's the only time that I can walk around the house with out having to look over my shoulder.

The silence is comforting, its different then at the hospital, the silence at the hospital held pain and worry but here its calm and warm. Its home and I was finally at peace. I get to the kitchen and open the refrigerator looking for a midnight snack. I see pancake batter and fruits and pull it out. Why not? I have to gain some weight anyways so let's go crazy.

I start to cut the fruits while heating up a pan and put soft music on the background then start to make the pancakes I went back in the fridge and pulled out some icecream and then to the cupboard and grabbed a bowl and the nutella while making the pancake I ate the icecream and nutella.

After making a couple of pancakes I turn of the stove grab my pancakes and icecream and sit at the table and start eating my midnight breakfast.

I hear steps making there way closer to the kitchen and look up at the entrance waiting for who ever was on there way toward me.

Vegas walks in with sleepy eyes and shirtless.

"I smelt food, is there any for me?" He asks not looking my way I guess he thought it was some one else. I giggled and his head snapped my way. He had a small smile in his lips but a sad look in his eyes.

"You're out of your room." He states while leaning on the doorframe. I nod my head at him and push my pancakes toward him indicating he could have some. I'm a little hesitant but I keep telling myself its just Vegas.He grabs a fork of his own and sits next to me so we can share.

Vegas has been staying here with me and Lana. Apparently my brother wanted to keep an eye on us until I was ready to come back or for him to come see me. I had told Lana that if she wanted she could go and get to know Jamie but she didnt like the idea of leaving me here with a house full of men so shes also staying here with me. And even though Jamie wanted to come himself he couldn't leave the clubhouse so he sent his friend and VP Vegas.

Vegas like everyone else has been keeping his distance from me and I'm very thankfull that they are not pushing me into anything. And I have been telling myself it's time to come out for a couple of hours during the day but I cant seem to get past opening the door.

"Yeah I was hungry, the baby likes food very much. I would kill for some pizza right now." I say loosing my intrest on the pancakes and icecream. Vegas raises an eyebrow at me and smirks. Obviously enjoy the fact that he gets the pancakes for himself.

"Ask Kevin, he'll make it happen." He says but turns back to the pancakes.

"What?" Kevin has been really sweet for the past couple of weeks but I've keped my distance away. I tried not to give him any ideas and after a couple of days he started to come less and less and I've barely seen him but I'm fine with it I dont want him to think that he is responsible for me or my baby.

"Call him, watch how he works his magic for you." He says but i ignore him not believing a word he is saying, he sighs and pulls out his own phone and makes a call. I watch him curiously to see what his about to do and by the smirk on his face I can tell it hasn't been the first time his done what ever it is his doing.

"Hey Alpha, I'm at the dining room with Mesperyian, she says she wants pizza." Then he hangs up puts his phone on the table and we wait.

"Why'd you wake him up?" I question but he just shrugs at me. After a couple of seconds of me staring at him he look up and a weird looking smile forms on his face. I'm about to ask what happen but he interrupts me.