My Silver Lining

Bella Ciao

JEMA'S POV

"Okay. Deep breaths...deep breaths" isip-isip ko while hugging baby Denver.

Ramdam ata ng bata ang kaba ko kaya tumingala ito sa akin.

Oh those eyes. Those beautiful kind eyes. Kahit kinakabahan ako, I couldn't help but smile at him. My darling boy.

"Mommy J? Are you...are you okay?" nag-aalalang tanong niya.

"Yes baby. Mommy's fine." I comforted him by gently patting his head.

"Are you scared Mommy?"

"Maybe just a little bit but I'm sure Mommy will be fine okay? Mommy will have lots of Doctors and Nurses to take care of her"

Parang iiyak na sya.

"Ssshhh it's okay sweetie. Don't cry."

"Will you be there a long time? I will miss you Mommy J" he said while hugging me.

"No baby. No. You'll see Mommy tomorrow and you'll get to meet your baby sisters. Would you like that?"

This seemed to cheer him up. He laid his head on my huge belly.

"Hey babies. I'm your big brother. Mommy J said I will see you tomorrow" he said softly.

He's now three and a half. Growing up to be such a handsome little boy.

Maya maya pa ay lumabas na si Deanna sa kwarto. She's carrying all our stuff in two big bags.

"Ready na lahat dito" sabi nya.

Nakita nyang namumula pa ang mata ni Denver.

"Hey buddy! You okay?" tanong nya dito.

Agad naman itong tumakbo sa kanya. Nilapag muna ni Deanna yung bags para kargahin ang bata.

"Mommy D, I'm gonna miss you" sabi nito habang naka yakap sa leeg ni Deanna.

Yes, we decided to have him call us both Mommy para hindi ma confuse and bata. And besides, having two mommies is awesome.

"There there baby. We won't be gone for long. And besides, you get to hang out with granda ang grandpa for a while"

"Oh I miss them too Mommy D. Are they coming soon?"

Buti nalang magaling din mag distract itong si Deanna.

"Yes baby. They should be here any minute now"

Ilang sandali pa ay dumating na nga ang parents at dalawang kapatid ni Deanna.

Tumakbo naman si Denver sa kanila at kinarga ito agad ni Dad.

"Oh hija, okay ka lang ba?" tanong naman ni Mom.

"Opo Mom. Excited nga eh hehe" sagot ko naman.

But actually, I'm freaking out. Ever since nung ma coma ako, I've had this certain fear of hospitals and major surgeries.

Pinipilit ko lang maging kalmado para sa pamilya ko.

Part of me is of course very excited. We've been waiting for this moment for so long.

All those IVF procedures, the hormone shots, the medications have all led to this moment.

It's not been an easy journey. The procedure failed 2 times before I finally conceived.