It All Started With Candy

Part 17

Recap:
"Okay Sam, you're clearly hurting and I want to help, but I can't help unless you tell me what's going on. I care a lot about you and you don't have to go through whatever you're going through alone. So please, if you can, please tell me what's happening. Let me in so I can help you. Help me, help you."

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Sam gave out a deep and heavy sigh as his smile dropped completely. He carefully and shakily put his coffee down on the conveniently placed coaster on the coffee table. He took a deep breath before speaking.

"I got a phone call from the hospital last night, and...and..."

A few tears started to streak down his face and I faced him better so I could grab his left hand with my right and the wipe his tears with my left.

"Shhh, it's okay. Take all the time you need."

He closed his eyes and took another deep breath.

"He's...he's dead Gabriel. He's dead."

I immediately pulled him into a hug. He started crying into my shoulder while I rubbed his back.

"I'm so so sorry Sam. Let it all out. It's okay, I'm here for you."

We stayed like that for a while and I couldn't help but have tears prick my eyes. It hurt me so much to see Sam hurting this much and I wish I could take it all away from him. He's such a gentle giant, that he made sure not to hug me too tight because he's probably double my size.

Suddenly thunder could be heard from outside. The sound of raindrops splattering against the window was like music to my ears. I've always enjoyed the sound of a good thunderstorm and it's been so soothing to me ever since I was a little kid. I know that doesn't really make sense, saying how I've had severe anxiety since a young age, but nothing about my life has made sense so far. Although I was enjoying the sounds, someone wasn't.

Sam jumped every single time a lightning bolt was seen outside the window or whenever thunder was heard. He squeezed into me tighter and then as if suddenly on que, there was a knock on the door at the same time thunder was heard in the distance.

Sam hesitantly let go of me after I squeezed him back. I went up to the door and went to look through the peep hole. I gave a little gasp which drew Sam's attention so he looked up at me. I swiftly opened there door to reveal a dejected looking Dean in front of me. He had a dripping wet raincoat on and a drenched umbrella down to his side.

"Dean! What are you doing here...?"

I stepped to the side to allow him to come inside and I took his umbrella as he stepped through. I gestured for him to give me his jacket, which he complied.

"I was looking..."

He turned his gaze over to where Sam was now standing.

"...for him."

Sam immediately started walking towards Dean and embraced him in a sibling hug. Tears were falling down both of their faces and soft whimpers were heard out of Sam.

"Sammy...I...I'm..."

"It's- it's okay Dean...you didn't....it's not your fault."

You could hear just how emotionally drained the two of them were. From what I've gathered, they didn't have the best relationship with their father, but he still meant a lot to the both of them.

"Dean, the last time I talked to him, I- I..."

"Shhh Sammy, I know, I know. It's okay Sammy, you didn't know he was gonna..."

I could see that more tears started to swell up and then a loud cry emitted from Sam as he buried his head into his older brothers shoulder.

I would be lying if I said that this didn't make me tear up. It was a very sad sight to see between two very emotionally damaged brothers, but I've grown a lot more attached to Sam then I originally planned. Hell I don't even know what we are! It hurt me a lot to see him suffering like this. I've had my fair share of suffering with my own family issues, but never actually losing a member. Well I've lost my entire family in the past emotionally and mentally, but never physically. I can't tell which one is worse.

I shook my head to get these thoughts out

Stop it Gabriel. Just stop. Stop comparing your life to his. He is in a much worse mental stand than you, so comfort him.

Every fiber of my being wanted to just go up there and hug the two of them in a group hug, but I stopped myself. That was until I saw Dean extend his arm out to me as an invitation to join then. I barely gave Sam enough time to move enough so I could fit before I practically crashed into the two of them. I would hear soft chuckles escaping their throats along with small sobs.

It wasn't long until we made our way to the couch and talked and laughed for what felt like hours. No one wanted to leave. I made them both food, which wasn't much because I am a college student and my extremen job doesn't pay that much, so I don't have much money as of right now. They were still grateful regardless.

I offered to let them both stay the night because it didn't look like either one of them were in the right state of mind to go out anywhere, which they humbly agreed to stay.

I went to my room and fetched Dean my second biggest pair of pajamas so he could be comfortable too. By now his hair was dried up but I told him that if he wanted to wash up a little bit, he was more than welcome to.

They insisted on staying on the two couches that I have and so I gave them each a few blankets and pillows so they could be as comfortable as possible.

And just like that, I was saying goodnight to the two of them and laying in my bed soon after, slowly drifting off to sleep.
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I am so so so so so so so terribly sorry that it took me almost 3 months to get this out, I've been procrastinating a lot and had a serious writer block so I thank you guys for being patient with me.

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