My Cure For Depression

Chapter 1 : Pilot

"I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare."

Ned Vizzini

It is Bellezza's POV throughout the story until said otherwise

Hi guys, I'm Bellezza Grace Lucious but people call me Belle. I'm 19 years old. I have finished college and have a degree in architecture. I choose this occupation because my heart lies in the world of art and music.

I have gold skin, long dark brown hair, hazel eyes, a slim body but I'm slightly curvy.

It's been 5 months since I've finished college. Many things happened to me 4 months ago and now I'm suffering depression and anxiety.

I broke up with my boyfriend after 4 years together because he and my best friend were having an affair. My parents were in an accident and my mother died. My father is in depression as well after the death of my mom and is taking a break from work.

I think that's dumb because he has 4 kids to look after. Because of that, my 3 older brothers had to get new, better jobs to support the family.

My oldest brother is Hugo Ricardo Lucious and he is 25 years old. He has tan skin, gorgeous brown blonde hair, a stubble on his chiseled chin and a muscular body. His eyes are grey with a hint of Hazel and blue. Hugo always smells like tobacco and sandal wood. He has many tattoos on his body. I don't really know what he does but he owns some business. He is very protective over me but rarely has time to hang out with the rest of us. I know deep down he loves us but he is never here to show it. He comes home every 4 or 5 months. Deep down I miss him but I don't want to hold him back. He can get real angry if I don't listen to him.

My 2nd my brother is Rainer West Lucious and he is 23 years old. Rainer has gold-ish tan skin, a chestnut hair and a stubble. He has a perfect jawline and a well built body. His eyes are hazel like mine and he always smells like oak and oil. He is an Aerospace Engineer. He is very loving towards me and worries about everything. He always watches me like a hawk. He also helps my brother with his business so I've heard. He's a great cook and loves eating but maintains a perfect body. He's also my favourite brother.

My 3rd brother is Furacian Alexander Lucious and he's 20 years old. He has copper skin with blonde brown hair. He has blue eyes like my mom and a muscular body as well. He smells like lemongrass and tobacco. You see we like to call him Fury not only because of his name but also because he's a hot head. Furacian gets angry for everything. He can never control his anger but he still has a soft side towards me. He works as a doctor in a hospital. He also helps my oldest brother is his business.

I love all 3 of them but loosing our mother has really broke me the most.
My dad mostly drowns his sorrows in alcohol and clubs but I just sit in my room all day and cry. I don't even go and eat. I eat like once a few days when I'm really hungry.

I have not seen any of my brothers since the funeral. They all have been very busy. I wish they were here. If they found out about my current state, they would be furious.

Here I am in my room at 5pm, writing in my diary, on my bed. I just ate a sandwich after 3 days. I know it's unhealthy but I have no appetite to eat. I lost 7 kg in 3 months and now I'm 43 kg. I haven't had the sunlight on my skin in 3 months. I always order take out food.

I heard a knock on the door downstairs while I was writing. I don't remember ordering anything. Maybe it's dad I thought so I went down to open the door.

I was beyond shocked actually scared. My brother, Furacian was in front of me, his face in anger as he studied me head to toe. Shit! Just when I though my life couldn't get any worse...

Last updated on 20th December 2019