diary

20/1

i have tried to avoid you.
it is really hard.
i might now make it but i am gonna try to power through.
i am sorry you do not know why i am avoing you
it is so my feelings for you go away.
he hasnt shown up today which is kind of scaring me
i miss him
i want to see him
there is so much i have to tell him
but he is not here
hopefully i see him soon so i do not forget everything i want to tell him.
he is my best friend so i tell him everything i may not tell others
but i have not told him anything today because i have not seen him today
i hope i see him before i see you again he will help keep me from telling you everything that i do not think you are ready to hear.