diary

23/1 pt. two

i carried out my plan.
it failed
you were not there
it was supposed to happen with you there
i will try on tuesday.
if you are gone tuesday i will give up
if not i will try again
he will not talk to me because of you
but you do not know that
so i will try to tell you about him
it will be hard but you got mad because of it
he is mad because of it as well
i am going to try to fix it
i am not sure if i can though
i am going to try my best
if it does not work then
i am sorry
i will not speak to you
he is too important to me
i need him in my life
and i think i need you but
i have had him in my life
longer than i have had you in my life
so i will choose him
i will always choose him
no matter what
i am sorry to you
but you do not notice me much
you have her
you do not need me
he needs me
he does not have anyone else
i am all that he has
i can not just leave him for you
i need to be there for him
always