my birthday is tomorrow
and im laying on the couch
reading a book
and it says something that i get
'i love you, but i can not be with you, because i think i still love them'
it sucks being in a relationship with someone
when you have feelings for another person
my grandma, every time i see her
asks me if i have a boyfriend or girlfriend yet
and i always say no
so last time she asked me why i have not been in a relationship for a long time
i told her because i like someone
she said do they like you back
i nodded
she asked what the problem was
i said because i also like someone else
and she smiled
and told me that she wished the world
had more people like me
because some who cheat are with someone while they like another person as well
but i could never do that
i like 2 people
so i am not trying to be with either of them right now
but i still like them
and both of them are possibly going to read this
but that is okay
because for one i am in it for the long game
the other i dont really know where she is going to be in my life
i like her but i do mot think she likes me
i know she did
but i feel as though she does not any more
and i am okay with that
because platonically i like her
and in a not so platonic way i like her
i do not know which way i like her more
but i bought her a purple thingy that is on my head
it is not a hat
i just like putting random things on my head
this was a very scattered entry so
to help ease any confusion
though it is not helping anything
have a random picture i pick from my phone (:
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