diary

11/2

hello.
it has been a while.
life has gotten more complicated
im in a constant panic about everything
i never know what to say when i go near anyone
so i ramble
then i get even more paranoid
like im being annoying
or just saying random stuff
i do not like feeling this way
and i am paranoid
but that does not mean people are not watching me
i listen to my old songs to try and fix it
it makes it worse
but i missed the songs
so i continue to listen
i think it might turn out bad
but oh well
no body knows
but i have a feeling
it is a very intense feeling
and it is not good.