Something That Will Last

10 // Like A Viking

10 // Like A Viking

Kahit may sariling kwarto si Jules ay mas madalas siyang tumambay dito sa kwarto ko. Tapos tuwing mag-aaral lang tsaka siya bumabalik sa lungga niya.

This old room of Kuya Lenard became officially mine after we got rid of his stuff and replaced with all that's mine. His boy toys that he couldn't bring to their house ended up being donated.

After I was kicked out of our own house, meaning I had to leave for college, I made sure to transform this room to my safe haven.

"Sa tingin mo si Jerrick si Eerie Constantin?" tanong ni Jules while flipping the pages of my idol's personal portfolio.

Kapag nandito si Jules sa kwarto ay may comforter na nakalatag sa sahig at doon siya nakahiga.

I scoffed at the idea. "I don't think Jerkrick has Eerie's depth and substance to be that good."

Napabangon siya at tila handa nang makipagsapalaran para baguhin ang paniniwala ko. I just looked at her without any expression.

"Uy hindiii," she sang. "Matalino 'yon! Kaya ko rin siya naging crush kasi akala ko magagamit ko siya sa acads if ever maging kami."

Ngumuso siya, parang sayang na sayang at disappointed siya sa nangyari. Natawa ako nang sobrang lakas. Hindi ko naman sinasadya.

"Ngayon ko nami-miss si Saige!" she exclaimed while giving me a sharp look. Mas lalo lang akong tumawa. "Ganyan ka ka-dimunyu, e ano? Hindi ka matinong kausap."

I made a face. "So why are you still here?"

Umirap lang siya, pero ininis ko pa rin siya lalo noong inilabas ko dila ko and made a face again.

Wala pa akong sinabi noon ha! Pero ganyan na ang reaksyon niya. That's how I am to my cousins, the people I could easily win over.

After a while ay nakatulugan na ni Jules iyong pagbbrowse sa portfolio ni EC. I was watching Netflix to rock myself to sleep but I just couldn't feel sleepy.

Nakabukas iyong portfolio ni EC sa gitna at nakapatong sa tiyan ni Jules. Nilaylay ko ang katawan ko sa kama para maabot iyon.

Hindi talaga ako nagsasawang tingnan nang paulit-ulit ito. Titigilan ko lang siguro kapag nakapili na ako ng favorite kong photo sa collection na ito. Pero ngayon pa lang ay alam ko na sa sarili ko na parang hindi ko kayang mamili. Lahat gusto ko, mahirap sabihin kung ano ang pinakaangat sa lahat.

i could have walked out the door the first time you left it wide open.

but how could i? If leaving meant leaving all of me behind?

if leaving meant I could only carry my body out with my heart as hollow?

That's what it said on the photo.

Dito pa lang ay sagad na agad sa buto ko ang sinabi ni Eerie. If we shared a similar fate at any point in our lives, then I already feel sorry for him or her.

The lips of the lover kissed the back of the hand of the beloved. Under the sunset, and in a world they choose to ignore.

So that's my today's pick.

So far, because Wyatt was the only person that could ever come close to being mine, every quote of love, every heartbreaking words reminded me of him.