One month passed.
It had been one month since I came here.
"Are you okay, dear?"
I literally hugged the toilet bowl as I keep vomiting.
And the nurse keep rubbing my back.
Ever since I started the chemotherapy, I never fail to vomit after the treatment.
There's a noise coming from outside, "Dear, why wouldn't you answer your phone? It rings everyday."
It's still the same.
The nurse who had been assigned to take care of me would ask everyday when my phone rang.
And it rang for a month.
At first, I wanted to stop the service to the phone number since I got myself a new phone with a USA number.
But I couldn't.
I thought at least; at least I could give them some hope that I'm still alive out there even though I didn't pick up anyone's call.
So I let it rang.
I finally feel better after vomiting out everything in my stomach and she helped me up.
I wash my face on the sink.
And I look at myself on the mirror when I wipe my face.
I look so pale.
Just like those vampires in english movie.
I was that pale.
How could I let him see this face?
I don't want anyone to cry just because they saw how sick I am now.
That's why I choose to leave.
I choose to leave without looking back.
Even though it hurts so much whenever I thought about everyone.
Especially Min hyun.
"Byun." I snapped back my sense as the nurse caresses my back lightly, "I'll get something sweet for you to gain your appetite." I nodded, "Thanks, Maria." She's a lady who are as old as omma.
She was the one who brings me to the counter when I first came here.
I checked my phone as usual.
I know; I know Min hyun will call everyday.
He still text everyday. And I read it everyday.
I just don't reply.
Same goes to the rest.
They literally take turns to call and text me.
But I just have to be harsh.
Because I know that when Seong Woo oppa never ever give up on looking for eonnie for four months, Min hyun will do the same.
He will do the same thing until he found me.
Reading messages from Jin young, it makes me tear up too.
'Where are you?'
'Why did you need to hide?'
'At least give us a reason.'
'What you did is worse than Min jae, arra? Hae jo, don't do this to me.'
'Don't do this to hyung, at least.'
'It had been a month. Where did you go seriously?'
'Hyung still go for his world tour. But whenever he goes overseas, he look around the city for you like a mad guy.'
