I couldn't take a step forward.
Closing the door behind me, he spun around to look instantly.
I can see how he jerk up from the sofa when he saw me.
Judging by his look, he must have stay up while night waiting for me to come back.
"Hae jo,"
I just remain standing there when he called, "I'm really s-sorry. I'm so s-sorry." He cry like a kid but as at now other than tired, I feel nothing.
He said is my punishment.
Nothing can be more painful than that.
Maybe in my past life, I really did something so bad and lived a sinful life.
And my punishment came in this life.
Yeah, probably that's the real story behind it that I never know.
Only god knows.
"H-Hae jo ah," He came to hold my hand now but I still didn't look at him.
I don't blame him like what I told Jin young.
But saying that it's my punishment, it really hurt me deep in my heart.
He literally gave me no chance to run to anyone.
Nor a place to hide.
"I want to quit the show."
That's the first thing I said and look at how tight he hold my hand with two hands.
He held it so tight.
"I-I already told them that we will quit."
Great.
Because there's no point that we keep doing a mellow drama in front of them when it was supposed to be a show that show off sweetness.
Shivering a little, I hold on to my fist.
Even though the sleeve is way past my hand, I could still feel the cold air.
While another hand felt so warm because he's holding it.
"Hae jo," I pushed his hands away lightly from mine despite how much I miss his warmth, "I won't look at you." I won't look at all.
So that I wouldn't need to see his sad face.
If that's really what he thinks about me, then yeah this is what I'm doing.
At least I won't complain anymore when I can't see his face.
I just walked away from him but he quickly pulled me back and hugged me.
"M-Mian, jinjja m-mian," He cry out again as he tightened his hold on me, "I-I'm stupid that I never see it. I'm such an i-idiot,"
I actually want to stay away from him for some time.
At least until I'm okay to see him again.
But I hate myself for inhaling his scent now.
I hate myself for relaxing when I heard his heartbeat against my ears.
I hate myself so much now.
"Anni, I'm the pabo." I muttered but he shook his head, "It's my f-fault," I could hear how he breathe in shakily, "I-I only see it from my view. Because I thought that's how you think. Y-You always think in my view b-but," He let out a heartbreaking cry, "I-I'm supposed to see it from your view too and I didn't. W-While Jin young did. I shouldn't say something like that to y-you."
