Insecure.
I started to feel insecure when I look at Min hyun's back.
Impossible that he doesn't know I vomitted.
He have Jin young and PD-nim who would tell him.
"Drink some soup first." He make me sit down as he had actually set up the whole table for dinner.
There are many side dishes.
I did start drinking as it warms up my body.
Min hyun sit down beside me and I look at him when he took both of my hands.
Later that I know, I had started crying actually.
I start crying when he keep rubbing my hands in his because my hands are freezing cold.
It's always like that whenever I vomit after the treatment.
"K-Kemanhae, Min hyun." I muttered and he stop rubbing my hands but remain holding my hand tightly.
I'm scared actually.
I'm scared that what happened that day would happen again.
I'm scared that I die infront of him, for real.
"You will be okay, hmm? You have me." Having him with me or not still doesn't help my body in adapting with the new dose of medication, "G-Gwanchana, I can get you to the hospital immediately since this is why you stay with me now right? Nothing will happen to you."
He's trying to convince himself.
He is just as scared as me.
"Uljima, hmm?" He stand up to hug me and I took in a shaky breath.
I just cry until I feel tired.
He still wants me to eat something before I go to sleep so I did.
I just sleep after taking a hot shower since my body is totally exhausted because of vomiting this evening.
And my head is throbbing in pain too.
But the more I lay on the bed, the more I feel dizzy.
My head is getting heavier and heavier.
I'm not feeling good.
"Min hyun," I barely whisper but a hand is already touching my forehead and my face, "Come," I could barely open my eyes when he quickly pull my arms over his shoulder and carry me.
I don't feel any chest pain like that day.
But still, I feel that my breathing is getting heavier and heavier too every time I inhaled.
I heard many noise but I can't make up any words in my mind other than hearing someone said don't film something.
My sense are still here that I could feel a needle poking through my flesh before I heard a loud breathing sound.
I think I lost my consciousness for quite some time.
Or maybe I just simply fall asleep before I woke up again.
The lights are dim in the room when I open my eyes.
I find myself wearing a breathing mask this time.
Is Min hyun who are beside me when I look to my side and found him looking down.
He was crossing his arms together as one of his hand was scratching his bottom lips.
It was a sign of him being scared and insecure now.
My breathing was so loud when I try to let out a breath slowly.
