Midnight Memories

Ego Pt. III

BAD TRIP. I tried to concentrate on my work pero hindi ko magawa-gawa iyon dahil wala ako sa mood. I'm usually level-headed when it comes to work, and I know how to keep my personal and professional life separate. I'm just below par with my usual standard working condition and it's not healthy. Not when I'm being compensated well by the company only to behave like this.

Maybe it's because I'm on my first day of having a period, and it's understandable that I act like this, or maybe it's because of me seeing Irvin last night, and I have every right to react like this just because, or maybe it was because I knew na nandito na si Jeho, pero hindi sya napadaan kanina, at na-late ako ng sampung minuto kasi akala ko talaga na-traffic lang sya. I don't want to sound so demanding because in the first place, it wasn't Jeho's responsibility to drive me to and fro. Kaso, sinanay nya na ako.

Kung hindi siguro sya naghatid ng pasalubong kagabi, hindi ko malalamang umuwi na sya, at hindi ako aasang may susundo sa akin kaninang umaga. Naghintay ako ng halos isang oras. I hate myself for getting used to him, and now I felt so dependent on him kaya anong hinantungan ko?

I was never late. Ngayon lang. All because I waited for someone I shouldn't have expected to begin with.

And to top it all of, he usually explains his side kahit na hindi ko naman hinihingi ang eksplenasyon nyang iyon. It's already ten forty five in the morning but he never even bothered going out just so he could explain himself. Not that it's my right to demand for an explanation pero kasi nga, sinanay nya na ako. At ngayon hinahanap-hanap ko na iyon.

Ang bigat ng bawat pagtipa ko sa keyboard. I can see a bit of Jeho's figure through the smoke glass of his office. He's there. I hate him. Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin kahit na hindi nya iyon nakikita. Ginagawa ko lang 'yon kasi baka sakaling maramdaman nya ang mga masasamang tingin ko at makapag-reflect sya sa ginagawa nya. Kung sawa na sya sa pagdaan-daan nya sa condo ko, then so be it. Nakakaintindi naman ako kasi hindi naman ako bobo. Sana lang nagsabi sya beforehand, diba? Hindi iyong para akong tanga kakahintay sa kanya.

Bahala sya sa buhay nya.

At eleven am, I wasn't even halfway through my report. Such an ample amount of time wasted only because I was thinking of Jeho, si Jeho na walanghiya-- I mean, si Jeho na walang malay.

I tried to be engrossed with my work when suddenly, biglang nag-ingay ang buong paligid. Napaangat ako ng tingin. They were all entertaining some random woman. She looks like the mestiza version of Angel Aquino. She also looks rich from head to toe. Relo lang ang meron sya but when I got a good look at it, I almost wanted to faint. It was Chopard, I was sure of it. 'Yun yung Chopard na Ice Cube na rose gold at diamond-encrusted. Alam na alam ko kasi parati ko 'yung nadadaanan sa IG. It was insane seeing it in real life, in the arm of a woman who is very graceful and looks genuinely humble, tapos ni wala syang alahas ni isa, pero nang mapadako ang tingin ko sa hawak nyang bag, gusto ko na lang mapasigaw na nakakahimatay iyong Himalaya Birkin nya kamo. Grabe. Napatitig ako sa mukha ng babae, she awfully looks like someone I know pero hindi ko ma-pinpoint kung sino.

"Madam, matagal na ho kayong hindi napadalaw!" Masayang bati ni Austin. He's a fellow employee and he looks like he knew this very beautiful woman standing a few meters from me.

"Busy sa lakwatsa!" I smiled upon hearing her. She looked like someone who doesn't know that word pero nakakagulat na alam nya. Mukha lang syang sosyal pero ang humble naman nyang sumagot. Sana all humble. "Asan 'yung anak kong isa lang ang maayos na pantalon?"

May anak sya dito? Sino? Mukhang wala namang kasingyaman nya dito sa department namin eh! Pero kung lalake baka pwede kong asawahin para ipamana sakin iyong Hermés ni madam. Pwedeng-pwede din 'yung relo. Ako pa ba choosy.