y so cold {ryuna/2shin}

Original Ending

"Hey Ryu~ You're probably missing me right now, I know what you're thinking. Where am I? How can I remember you? What is happening? If you received my letter please don't ask Beomgyu questions, trust me he doesn't have a bit of an idea of what I have planned.

So, to answer your questions I made this letter. First of all, I love you. I love you so so so so much.

Shin Ryujin, remember those days when we cuddle in your bed? Those days where I cook your breakfast? Those days I kiss you to sleep whenever you feel like you're having nightmares? That day when we had our very first kiss? When we had our puppy Zeus.

I'm sorry for leaving, I'm sorry if I'm not coming back anymore. I'm sorry if I came to your life just to break you.

Ryujin. Day by day I'm getting weaker and weaker because of my illness. I'm sorry for not telling you when I had the chance, I'm sorry if I only tell you through a letter. I was scared. What will happen if I tell you I'm going to the states because my cancer is getting worsen? I knew you wouldn't let me so I had to lie. I'm sorry but I can't bare to see you looking at me with a hurt expression in your eyes. It will be hard for me to see you in that situation.

Believe me when I said you are the best thing that happened to me. It hurts so much but you have to let me go now.

Shin Ryujin, I hope you're doing well but please don't miss me too much.

I've lived my life with no regrets, especially when it comes to loving you.

It's time for you to do the same.

It's time to let go of me, Ryujin.

Live life to its fullest, don't let me hold you back.

I'll be waiting for you in heaven, I can't wait to see you again but I hope it's after a long long time.

I love you, Shin Ryujin."

It was the last letter I received from Yuna, months after her wedding. But I never thought I'll receive another one.

She's here. Right infront of me. But the difference is she's not breathing anymore, her pale face and body. I can't bare to see her inside that coffin.

No. No. No.

I can't accept it. Yuna, you broke your promise.

They started to bury her, I wanted to shout, I wanted to tell them to stop. This is not real. She's alive. She will never leave me.

I hope this is just a dream. I hope you're still here.

Yuna, you can't leave. Not like this.

We still have a lot to go. Fuck!

THIRD PERSON'S POV

Ryujin slowly opened the harden paper she got from Beomgyu, her breathing as shakey as ever

"She told me to give this to you, her last words... is your name," Beomgyu sadly mutter

"I love you, Shin Ryujin."

The scent is definitely from Yuna's perfume. Her handwritten letter is too exquisite. Ryujin's droplets of tears dipping on the paper, the first thing that greet her when she opened it is a picture of them, smiling widely at the camera.

Her vision became blurry as she reads the last letter her lover wrote.

My Dear Ryujin,

Your beautiful smiles and giggles are the reason why I'm still fighting but I'm sorry that you will have to suffer again, if only I knew this disease early I wouldn't have entered your life. I shouldn't have entered your life. But, I know that the man above has sent me to you for a short time to make you happy after all those sufferings. You don't deserve any of this, you're too precious for this world, my love.

As soon as possible I want to keep you away from me but I just can't, I know it's too selfish but I want to spend my last days with you, holding you close while we cuddle in bed. Waking up next to you is the best thing every morning, I wish we could do that forever but I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I'm going to leave you behind again like what your parents did. I love you, Shin Ryujin. I love you so much that my heart hurts because of you.

I'll miss you. I'll miss your smile, your touch, your kisses, your eyes, your voice, your body, your hands that perfectly fits on mine and YOU.

Promise me that once I'm gone, you will continue your life. You are strong, babe. You will do all the things we planned together whether you're alone or if you find someone else. I want you to spend your life happily but it's better if you're with someone eventhough it's not me. I will wait for you in the afterlife and I will always look out for you.

I love you so much, my love, my wife, my girl, my baby, my Shin Ryujin and I will make sure that in our next lives that we will live happily with each other.

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Ryujin didn't stop her tears from flowing as she reads the letter Yuna wrote for her. She knelt next to her grave as her mind went blank

Ryujin keeps on denying that she isn't dead, she can't accept the fact that Yuna left her, again.

All of these was like Deja vu for Ryujin, she had enough of all the pain she received from all her love ones. She wanted to give up.

Lia hugged her from behind giving her the comfort that she needs but she doesn't feel a bit any better. It's worst. Her tears that can't stop coming from her eyes as she muffled her cries is making Lia burst into tears.

Despair, pain, sadness, grief all of it is what Ryujin's feeling right now as she traced Yuna's name in the tomb right beside her.

The rain started to fall as if it's comforting her, it made her insides worsen. Everyone started leaving but Lia stayed beside her along with Chaeryeong and Yeji.

Ryujin felt numb, she can't feel things anymore other than the pain in her heart as she stared at Yuna's grave.

Life is nothing without Yuna for her.

"You said you wanted to spend your last days with me but you suffered alone Yuna. I can't accept this. Why? Why?! Why!!" Ryujin yelled her breathing stops for a moment

Before she can even realized what was happening, she already fell into the deep slumber of unconciousness.

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