The Mafia and Its Angel (Under Editing)

(43) Strong Like Bull

Amelia

I smile as we pack up all my things and sign the discharge papers and leave the damn hospital. It feels so good to not be confined to a bed and be treated like an infant, I mean that won't stop...Josh is Josh. It just feels good.

We leave the front doors and all pile into our cars and head home. Home, man do I miss home. I sigh. Even though I'm 'free' I'm not. My poor babies are out there and Josh told me that they've been looking while I was in the coma and still found nothing.

The car slows to a stop as we park in the estate driveway. I unbuckle my seat and go to open my door when Josh opens it and puts his hand out with a smile. I frown before looking at his seat and open door before looking back at him and rolling my eyes.

"I can do this by myself you know."

I say and he nods.

"I know but I like doing this."

I smile and let him help me out of the car. He walks around the car and closes his door before holding my hand and walking us up to the front door. The others are already inside. I smile as I see Mina standing in the middle with everyone around her. In her hands are a yummy looking strawberry cheesecake cake. My mouth waters, as do my eyes. She hands the cake to Levi before walking up to me and holding me in a tight hug.

"Welcome home mija."

She says with tears in her eyes. I smile and nod before hugging her again.

"its good to be home."

We separate and I hug everyone else before going upstairs to shower, brush my teeth and change. I open my door and see the bedroom untouched, as if the attempted suicide never happened and I was just coming up here after a long day. It was exactly how I left it when Josh was gone. Bed unmade and sheets pulled back, pillows as if there was someone sleeping on one side, nightstand still had my advil and glass of water on it. Everything was untouched.

"I didn't want anyone to move anything."

I turn to see Josh at the door frame, I must have walked into the room while remembering.

"Seeing our room this way...made me realize and reminded me of how you felt when I abandoned you. Reminded me of how shitty I treated you when you needed me the most."

Tears start falling down his cheeks and I walk over to him and wipe them away. I take his hand in mine and pull him into the room, shut the door and continue to pull him into the bathroom. I turn on the water to just how I like it and undress myself before undressing him with little resistance.

Once he's undressed I pull him into the shower with me and sit him on the little bench with his back towards me. I can still see how his back shakes with each tear that falls down his cheeks. I put some shampoo in my hands and lather up his hair. I smile as I remember how this has happened before. Josh turns and faces me.

He holds my face in his strong hands and kisses me. He doesn't even have to tell me how he feels, this is telling me more than words ever could. I kiss him back and make it so he's standing under the water. I rinse his hair from the soap. After all the suds are gone he picks me up and holds me to the shower wall as he feels my body as if it were the first time.

He's so gentle and careful with every touch and kiss. I smile into his kisses and hug him close to me before breaking the kiss and laying my head on his shoulder.

"I am so sorry Amelia. You have no idea how much regret I feel everyday. I should have been here. I failed and I'm so sorry."

He says, his voice cracking at the end. I sigh and hold him even closer to me.

"It's okay. I'm here. It's okay. Lets find our little boys."

He sniffles but nods before grabbing the shampoo and doing the same as I did to him, to me. After showering I brush my teeth thoroughly and walk out of the bathroom to find Josh dressed and sitting on the bed with a light yellow sundress and strapy sandals laid out on the bed next to him.

"I picked these for you. I don't know if they match but I liked them."

I smile and laugh.

"they are perfect together."

He smiles, clearly proud of himself and nods before helping me get dressed. I walk over Tony makeup table before thinking against it and walking out the room door with Josh's hand in mine. We walk downstairs and join the others who are waiting patiently to eat cake and have coffee. Man how I missed coffee.

I take a seat and Cami places steaming cup of coffee in front of me and I could not be more in love wth her. She winks at me as I take a sip. Awwwww she put my sugars and cream in it too. Mina cuts the cake and hands it out. I smile down at my cake and devour it. Everyone looks at me as if I'm crazy.

"What? This is the first thing ive eaten in months."

I say its a very full mouth and everyone nods and laughs. A weight comes onto my shoulders and I look up to see Josh looking down at me with such kindness before looking up and becoming serious. He clears his throat and everyone stops what their doing to look at him.

"I have news. I didn't want to give you guys false hope but our team has just confirmed it. We think we have the location of the twins."

He says and chaos breaks loose around me as I'm frozen to my seat. They found my babies. They found Jackson and Tyler. We are getting them back now. I'll have them in my arms soon. They'll be safe once and for all. All the thoughts run through my head but I'm still frozen to my spot with an unreadable expression on my face. I sit there as the thoughts repeat and just focus on my breathing. I look around and it looks like everything is happening in slow motion. People are talking, some are crying, others are getting ready to leave. My heart race raises and I stand up so fast I sway with. The dizzy feeling and Josh is there to steady me. Everyone stops moving and looks at me. I turn and walk upstairs.

Once in my room I pack a bag of everything my boys will need. I haven't pumped since they were gone so I guess my breasts will have to do the job. I pack a change of clothes and blankets and soothers and my wraps. After I'm sure they'll need nothing else I walk back downstairs and walk into the boardroom where I know everyone went when I left. They're all sitting around, talking strategy and I walk in and take my seat beside Josh at the head of the table.

He does a double take when I take my seat and shakes his head. Before he can even say no I start crying.

"dont even try telling me I can't go with you to rescue our babies. I'm their mother. They're going to need me when we get them, to feed them and change them and hold them close and apologize profusely. So I'm going"

I say between sobs and he has tears in his eyes as he nods and hugs me close to him so I can calm down. After I've calmed down and we've figured out a plan we pack up and get the gear we need before piling into the black SUV's and heading to where my babies are being held.