Sailing Above the Clouds

CHAPTER 23

"Bakla ka, wala ka bang gana?" Gale asked me while she's eating, andito ako sa condo niya habang si Parker ay nasa condo namin dahil nagsimula na ang pasukan at busy siya dahil may ginagawa na agad siya.

"Ewan ko walang appeal sa akin yung pagkain eh."

"Eh tara nga muna doon! Nood nalang tayo doon ko nalang ipagpapatuloy 'to." Tumayo na kaming dalawa dahil asa kusina kami at hindi pa kami nakaka-alis ay napatakbo ako sa kanyang sink at nagsuka ako.

Hinahagod niya ang aking likod habang suka ako ng suka.

"May nakain ka bang panis?" I went up to face her after wiping my lips.

"E-Ewan."

"Tangina ka hindi ka ba nagpipills?!" She asked. "Kailan ka huling nagkaroon?"

"E-Ewan ko, Gale. Pero nagsimula naman na akong uminom kahapon."

"Tapos matagal na kayong nagsesex? Tangina, Eloisa ano tingin mo sa pills pampalaglag? Once na may laman na yan hindi na gagana yon!" She looks frustrated. "Tangina ka diyan ka lang, bibili ako ng PT sa baba."

Naupo ako sa sofa at naalala si Parker. Hindi pa siya handang magka-anak kami pero paano nga kung totoo? Paano gagawin ko? Ipapalaglag ko na hindi niya nalalaman? Pero ayoko tangina buhay na 'to eh kahit dugo pa lang kung mayroon man.

"Oh." I looked at the three box at pumasok sa banyo at ginamit ang lahat yon na hindi mga tinitingnan ang bawat resulta.

"G-Gale." I gave her the PT at napatahimik siya nang makita ang resulta. "G-Gale, ano?"

"Y-You're pregnant, Eloisa."

I felt my knees got weak and it made me kneel the cold floor and she hugged me.

"If you're thinking of aborting it, I won't let you Eloisa andito ako i'll help you. Andito din ang mga magulang mo."

"D-Dad will get mad... At m-madidisappoint si Parker." I said while crying.

"Eloisa, listen to me." She cupped my face and wiped off my tears. "You will let the child see the world okay? No matter what are the consequences tsaka hindi pa naman sure yan pupunta tayo ng OB."

Yoon nga ang nangyari nagpunta kami ng OB at positive pa 'rin ang naging resulta hangang sa maka-uwi ako sa condo at wala si Parker.

Naupo ako sa dulo ng aming kama habang hawak ang fetal ultrasound. Nakatulala lamang ako habang tumutulo ang aking mga luha at napatingin ako sa pinto nang bumukas ito at bumungad sa akin si Parker na sukbit ang kanyang school bag.

"Angel? Why the hell are you crying?" He kneeled infront of me and cupped my face.

"P-Parker, i'm sorry." I said and cried at his shoulder while he's hugging me.

"Angel, what's the problem?" He said and I can't stop crying at his shoulder. "Angel, fuck it talk to me."

"Parker." I kept on crying until he made us some distance and looked at my eyes.

"Talk, Angel." I bit my lip and he wiped off my tears.

"Parker, I'm pregnant." I can see the shock at his face while I kept crying waiting for him to talk. "P-Parer, I am pregnant."

"A-Angel."

"If you don't want it m-maybe we can make some way like abort it-"

"No." He said and cupped my face. "We'll let it live okay?"

He hugged me while I kept on crying at his shoulder begging for someone to tell me that this is only just a dream that i'm not in a fucking reality.