letters; sunhak

77 - full chapter

『🍯♥️』

juyeon laid down in the darkness and stared at the ceiling, youngjae doing the same in his bedroom.

it was still storming outside and that's why eric's parents were stuck at a coworkers place.

both boys had the house to themselves.

both were worried about each other.

juyeon was scared about his and eric's actions.

the two kisses they shared kept going through juyeon's mind.

juyeon liked youngjae a lot, a lot more than he cares to admit.

juyeon's heart was beating wildly in his chest.

youngjae on the other hand was denying everything.

youngjae knew he didn't like boys so there's no way he could like juyeon.

youngjae just felt as if he was confused.

maybe his feelings weren't real.

maybe they were.

it was hard for eric to know what was real and not.

eric knows his kisses with juyeon was real, but were his feelings?

juyeon laid there.

eventually juyeon decided to stop being awkward and see if the younger was awake.

juyeon walked quietly through the hallway.

he didn't know where the youngers bedroom was so he just started opening doors.

once he got to the last door, he opened it slowly.

"youngjae, are you awake?" he whispers.

youngjae turns his head towards his door.

"do you need something?"

juyeon blushed. he so badly wanted to say, "i need you," but he kept those thoughts to himself.

"i was just wondering if you were awake."

"oh. why didn't you just text me?"

"i didn't want to. i wanted to make sure you were okay. you can't really read emotions through text."

"well..yeah."

"can i..come in?"

juyeon says as he was still standing at the door.

"sure."

juyeon opens eric's door more wide and closes it after he enters.

juyeon slowly walks towards his bed and sits on the edge not facing him.

"you can lay down if you want."

juyeon bit his lip and laid down under the blankets next to youngjae.

"so...are you okay? y'know, after those kisses..?"

"i'm fine. how have you been doing?"

"i'm doing good. it's like it never happened."

is that what he really thinks?

youngjae ponders.

"yeah. um, what now?"

"i can leave and—"

"no!"

juyeon's eyes widened as he stopped his movements.

"no, please."

"why not?"

"i just don't want you to leave."

"oh. are you sure theres no other reason?" juyeon teases.

"i'm sure!" eric says with heated cheeks.

"alright then."

juyeon lays back down.

eric looks up at him and smiles.

eric so badly wanted to cuddle with juyeon but was too embarrassed to say it so he just wrapped his arms around him.

"a-are you okay, eric?"

"i'm fine. i'm just a little touchy when i'm lonely."

"oh. well okay, i don't mind."

"i hope you know that i know you're not straight."

juyeon's eyes widened.

"what?!"

"haknyeon told me. you're a bad liar. heejin also told me about your conversation."

juyeon groans.

"why didn't you say anything?"

"i wanted you to tell me yourself. you should trust me," youngjae says.

"i do, but you're straight. i didn't want you to look at me any different or think i like you because that's outrageous!"

"it's okay, i understand. my friends were like that at first."

juyeon yawns.

"are you getting tired juju?"

"juju?"

"what? or do you like juyeonnie better," youngjae says.

"both are cute. but only you can call me that. okay youngie?"

both boys giggled which made their hearts flutter and skip a beat.

"youngie?"

"hey! i let juju slide. you can at least let this," juyeon pouts.

youngjae traces juyeon's pout with his finger.

"you're really cute juyeonnie," eric unconsciously says.

"you really think so?" juyeon questions with a blush.

youngjae nodded.

"of course i think so."

juyeom smiles.

"we should go to sleep soon."

"yeah."

both hoys got comfortable and closed their eyes.

the only thing that could be hear was their soft breathing and the slight rustle of his curtains from the ventilation system.

youngjae peeked and juyeon's eyes were closed.

eric then kissed juyeon on his lips again before closing his eyes and drifting off.

juyeon's heart started racing more rapidly.

he felt like eric was gonna give him a heart attack one day from his cuteness.

"i hope you don't forget our kisses," eric slurs.

juyeon smiled.

"of course not youngie."

— 02:17am ; 05-13-20