letters; sunhak

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「♥️」

"are you trying to make me jealous?" i ask as i push youngjae.

"what are you talking about?"

"don't play dumb. you obviously know i like you and you're just trying to hurt me more."

"of course i am. why wouldn't i? you're not a girl juyeon."

i shook my head.

i can't just go and push him and say that.

he'd know i'd like him for real.

"haknyeon! sunwoo!"

oh my god.

someone please kill me now.

"oh, hi juyeon."

i wiped my face and looked up.

"hi youngie," i smile.

"this is my new friend sarah. she's also from los angeles."

"that's so common, isn't it?" i say.

"juyeon, don't," haknyeon mouths to me.

i roll my eyes.

"h-hi everyone," she shyly says.

could this get any worse?

she's already gorgeous, lived in the same place as eric did, she seems shy, and she has the prettiest curly brown hair with blonde ends, glasses and freckles.

i can't compete.

i looked away from everyone.

i should leave but i don't want to be rude and seem mean.

i just like eric a lot and i want him in ways i shouldn't.

"hey, juju? you okay?" youngjae asks in a soft tone.

"y-yeah. i'm fine," i sniff and wipe my eyes.

i laugh a little.

"why do you care exactly? you have sarah."

"what are you talking about? i'll always care about you."

then stop making me so jealous!

"are you sure?"

"of course i am. do you need to talk about something? it looks like you've been crying. your sleeves are wet."

"i haven't been crying!" i whine.

"you have and it's fine."

"youngjae, i haven't."

"you're a terrible liar."

youngjae grabs my hand and drags me to an abandoned classroom.

"what's wrong juyeon? you seem upset or bothered. did i do something wrong?"

"no. you didn't do anything. you know i can never be mad at you youngie."

youngjae smiles and i felt my heart get warm.

"you know...we are alone in here," youngjae says and bites his lip.

"what are you implying?" i say nervously.

"i'm implying this," youngjae says and then kisses me.

i'm shocked.

why is he kissing me again if he doesn't like me or thinks they were mistakes?

i eventually couldn't fight my urges and i kissed him back.

we eventually ended up making out in a classroom.

he's just making me fall for him moreee~!

— 02:57am ; 05-28-20