BTS HYYH Notes (Book 1, 2, BUS Game) // COMPLETE [Part 2]

2022, Jul 29 - Yoongi (My Music)

[Place: Workroom]

Why is it that I start the melody after the person who play the guitar and play with me left by my side?

I looked at the piano from afar lying on my sofa. After getting expelled from the school, I had trashed eommeoni's piano tile. The only item that I was able to take with me from the collapsed house due to fire I threw is the half burnt tile from the apartment window.

I thought it was the end. I promised myself that I would never put my fingers on piano.

(A/N: Throwback after the day of June 25, Year 20)

It was the next day morning when I climbed down the stairs because I couldn't wait for the elevator. I thought I slept for a short amount of time but the sun was already coming up. There was nothing on the flower bed under the window. The security man told me the trash pickup truck came by a few days ago. I lost eommeoni's piano tile like that.

(A/N: End of throwback)

Even after that, I tried to stop music multiple times. I won't do it anymore. I'm not going back. Music is nothing. But even when I was running away, I knew. Like when I went down the stairs tripping, that I'm going to start music again. Music was that to me. In music, it was painful but I was also free. It was total confusion but also clear. Fear and confidence, hope and fear, in all the contradicting feeling I felt like living.

I wanted to play piano all of a sudden. From the inside, I wanted to meet my true self show acts strong but is actually fearful and cowardice. I wanted to curse, scoff, hurt, hit, break, hug, and cry with myself. And I didn't want to run away. I wanted to finish the melody that was made with piano and guitar.

This time, I felt like I could do it.