Hatid

H: Prologue

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I sighed before gathering myself up and continue to speak.

"Max..." I looked him with so much pain in my eyes.

"Viv..." I smiled weakly when I transferred my sight at her but it quickly faded.

"Can we be honest at each other?" I saw how both of their brows furrowed and the room was filled with curiosity.

"Tina-" Hindi na napatapos ang sasabihin ni Viv ng nagsalita ako ulit.

"Let's just stop..." My hands started to tremble as I continued.

"Let's just stop this thing or whatever we're playing because we already know that in the very first place..." I looked up to avoid the tears from falling when it started to form in the sides of my eyes. 

"Because in the very first place, I already lost." My voice cracked.

The room was filled with silence and even the emcee didn't try to move.

"I don't know what did I do to feel this hatred towards the both of you." My voice began to quiver while tears started falling.

"I don't even want to feel this but it just hurts... so bad." Tears over pooled down on my cheeks.

Sobrang sakit...

"May kasalanan ba ako sa inyo?" I asked looking straight at them with tears of pain in my eyes.

Viv started crying and Max stayed quiet...by her side.

"May nagawa ba akong mali Viv?" Umiiyak siyang umiling.

"May pagkukulang ba ako Max?" Hindi siya sumagot o gumalaw, nanatili lamang blanko ang kanyang ekspresyon.

"Walang kuwenta man itong pagtanong ko pero, bakit nagawa niyo to sa 'kin?" I weakly screamed out on top of my lungs with tears continue to drop. Using the back of my palm, I tried to wipe my tears escaping in my eyes but it was nonstop.

Kaya ko 'to, just a little bit more. I reminded myself.

Kita ko ang paghikbi at patuloy na iyak ni Viv at ang pagpatak ng luha ni Max. Sana kayo na lang ang sa posisyon ko, para alam niyo na mas sobra ang sakit na dinudusa ko kaysa sa inyo.

The emcee tried to reach out for me but I declined. I need to finish this.

I deeply sighed and calm myself before I continue.

"But as I said, useless na rin naman pagsumagot kayo kasi it already happened..." Pumikit ako ng saglit para pakalmahin ang puso kong nasasaktan na ng sobra.

"Kapag nangyari na, hindi na maaaring maibalik pa." I said that looking straight at Max's eyes.

I saw how Max tried to walk towards me but I refused by shaking my head.

"Just stay where you are earlier Max." I said and motioned him to stop using my hand. But he didn't listen, he took one more step facing my direction.

"Max, just please...please give me this. Kahit ito na lang..." I sounded like I was begging but it didn't matter anymore. I just want this to end.

Nagtataka pa siyang tumingin sa akin pero huminto rin ito. He knows what I mean.

"Kahit anong gawin natin, hindi na iyon magbabago." Pagpapatuloy ko.

"Nangyari na ang nangyari." Namumuo na naman ang luha sa gilid ng aking mga mata pero bago pa ito pumatak, mabilis ko itong pinahid ng aking kamay.

Humangi ako ng malalim.

"I know I'll regret this so bad but..." Tumingin ako sa dalawa.

"This is the only way to set things right."

Kahit masakit...

"Ito na yung matagal mo ng gusto Max..." Lumipat ang tingin ko sa kanya.

"Kung saan ka mas masaya at magiging masaya pa..." Kahit nasa piling pala ng iba.

Max...

Ang mahal ko...

Ang minahal ko ng sobra...

"Ihahatid na kita."

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