[COMPLETED] Cold as Ice (Countryhumans)

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Philippines POV

'Philippines one of the most mistreated and colonized countries' what a stupid reminder. I say to myself and sigh. Another day of therapy. Why am I even in this earth. They all want me to die and so why can't the nations just let us. "Freak" a girl says and I get wierd stares. Is it because of my looks?. My ugly curly hair?. Or my mask or just me entirely. I have a mask to cover my face and also to hide a scar that I never want to see nor let anyone else see it. My face was badly wounded and I have a scar on my lips. It's quite invisible but if you go closer to me you can see like my lips riped a bit on both sides..... Honestly I don't mind the look of the scar Because i already have so much on body.

But the reason why I have the scars on my mouth is what I never want to remember. Oh right I also need to get my ssris and other medicines. I sound so monotone. So bland and like I do t care. Well I do don't care. I guess I talk quite much in my mind Sometimes but not in person. In person I Haven't said many things. And also I refuse to talk to the therapist. Yay I'm here..... I say to myself sarcastically and walk. My hands are still in the pockets of my hoodie and I get stares. But I don't care and continue to walk in the halls until I got to the place where the nations and Poland are.

I sit down next to Poland and we both have the face of not caring and having no emotions on us. "Ah there you are Philip shall we begin?" Poland's Therapist says Cheerfully. I don't remember when was the last time I was like that. And I don't like it when I get called philip and Phil although being called Phil is unavoidable Because u have three syllables in my name. A nurse whispers Something to the therapist's ear probably about I don't like being called Philip or Phil. "Ah I'm sorry Philippines I shall address you as Philippines from now one please forgive me, now then will you two talk? Mag you please take of your mask Philippines?" The therapist says and ofcourse no. I'm not going to let him see my face.

Poland saw my face because we did a trade he sees my scars and i also see his. And ofcourse our wing scars......
Some of the countries have wings. Like us and Kazakhstan...... lucky for Kazakhstan he got colonized by his father and so he wasn't heartless enough to cut his own son's wings. But unlucky for us we got our wings cut..... My wings got stabbed by Spanish Empire then he cut my wings... There's still some part of my wings like the part where my wings and my back connect... Only a bit left... But when it came to America..... He tortured my wings like burning it a bit and stabbing them. But the last time.... Japan Empire cut my wings for good. My back if flat now but has a scar Because it got toroughly cut.....

I snap out of my trance when I fell emence pain on my back. My wings scars are hurting again..... I drop to the floor and lost conciossness. It's been a while and I regained my conciossness

-time skip-

Third person

Phil goes to sit next to Poland again and he says to Poland "how many?" "7" Poland says. "What about you?" Poland asks. "4 or wait no it's 6" Phil says. The tree Nations and the therapists thought that they are talking normally and chatting like what friends do and talking about something random that involves counting. But in truth they are talking about how many cuts they have done that are new. And the two knows that they are completely oblivious of the topic that they are talking about.

Then Poland brings out two dolls the other is like Phil and the other is Poland.
And seems like Poland made them. "Aw
How sweet did you make that for Phil Poland?" Asean says. And Poland nods. "That's a great replika of Phil Poland!" EN says and UN nods. Poland and Phil both needed a doll that looks like them. They thought it's for playing. But in truth they have a doll that looks like them so that they could stab it with needles and Torture it and imagine that it's them.
They became quite numb over the years and sometimes they can't feel pain and so they are kind of like masochists but also not in the same time.

-time skip-

Phil has gone home and is always tired and feeling depressed. Nothing makes Phil happy anymore. He lost Interest in everything and to the things that he liked to do before but now he feels no happiness Doing them. Phil puts an extra uniform in his bag because he knows that the others will egg him or throw other nasty things on him and beat him up again. Phil isn't only being maltreated Because of his past and looks and behaviour also because he's gay. Poland is also great but there's no chance of them ending up being together.

Because they both agreed that they won't date each other even if they are both gay. Now Phil will have to start another day of hell.... And see the three.... Especially the American who mistreats him so much.

June 15,2020?