The Cabin's Walls

Come Home

Ever since that incident happened, I haven't talked to Jimin yet. He's ignoring me and I'm here, lonely and depressed. I'm trying to get ahold of him but he's just being so distant. I've been trying to make up to my mistakes but he's not even bothered by it.

I cooked for him, I wrote him some letters since he doesn't want to talk to me, I did what I can do but he still ignores me.

What I've been witnessing for the past few days are nerve-wrecking. It hurts me, it breaks me, it kills me. I'm hurt enough when he's ignoring me and then I'll just saw him and Hoseok-hyung flirting with each other? Am I not worth the fight? Am I not worth a chance? Am I not worth anything?

Maybe he's too hurt for what he saw. I mean, I'll be deadass mad too if I were in his place. But I made a mistake too, and I can't blame him. I'll just try my best to have him back even if it hurts me, that's how much I love Jimin.

I prepared my casual wear for the party later, I don't actually wanna go but maybe I can have a chance to talk with Jimin and maybe we can mend up our broken hearts together.

I brushed my hair as I throw myself on my bed letting it take the pain of my body away. It just makes me feel so comfortable and relaxed. Everytime I cry, this pillow, this blanket and this bed are the only ones I rely on to. I know I still have friends but I don't want to burden them.

"Park Jimin baby", it always tears me up inside when I'm calling out his name. But what tears me up more is that I can't have him now. I can't go to him, I can't talk to him, I can't hug him, I can't kiss him, I can't live like this.

Every now and then, my room always hear my sobs, my shouts, my screams and now, once again.. it'll hear it.

"I love you", loud sobs are heard and are echoing inside my room. Who cares anyway right? I can just cry here the whole day and no one will ever know.. just me.. but I have to control it today, I have to talk to him.

I wiped my tears and went to my bathroom to wash my face first before changing my clothes. It's already 5 in the afternoon and the party starts at 6, I have to meet Namjoon-hyung too.

...

I saw Namjoon-hyung with Jin, Yoongi and Taehyung-hyung. I'm still not talking with Taehyung and I'm not planning to. I'm still so disappointed and mad at him.

I sat on the couch and took some sips from the alcohol infront of me. I'm not really a fan of alcohol and ever since that happened, I even lessened my drinks. I won't let that happen again. I can't hurt Jimin again. Seeing Jimin broken makes me broken too. I just.. I just love him so much..

I feel so heavy everytime I think of him, I sighed and wandered my eyes, I guess it's a wrong move though. I saw Jimin and Hoseok-hyung coming here.. holding hands.

I can't even let that scene where they were flirting in OUR place off my mind and then..

I can feel my waters forming in my eyes but I can't.. I can't let this moment go to waste. I still have to talk to him. I have to get him back. I have to tell him everything.

"Hey guys, it's so great in here!", Jimin shouted so we can hear it.

"It is great here.. but it will be greater if you're with me.", I murmured while keeping my head down.

"What Jungkook?! Did you say something?"

"What? No hyung I-I.. it's just... nothing." Shit, Yoongi-hyung could've heard me..