a pure monstrosity (attack on Titan X male reader)

gone

Y/n stood outside the room Peick was stationed in, the cold interior of the ship not helping to calm his nerves. Biting his thumbs nail as he paced Zeke look on in slight amusement.

"Stop worrying, have some faith in the medical teams" Zeke stood by the door as his grey, almost blue eyes tracing every step Y/n took. "You're twenty years old for god's sake calm down" the well known eldian heir turned towards Zeke with a gaze of annoyance. "Well I'm sorry that I'm not a fearless leader like you Zeke! But fear is a human emotion and I can't control that can I?" The captain looked at his friend and chuckled "I'm not fearless Y/n, in fact I'm far from it. The only reason I'm here is because I let my fear control my judgement. You can't control your emotions but you can control your demeanor and attitude, I thought  lady Tybur taught you this" Y/n sighed and calmed down as he leaned against the wall next to Zeke "she said deception is the most powerful tool that anyone can use, but don't be afraid to show your true intentions. Or something along those lines" he nervously chuckled, rubbing his neck in embarrassment.

Zeke sighed "and you're the one we're sending to infiltrate the walls"  Y/n chuckled a little "c'mon Zeke have a little faith!" Before the warchief could reply a nurse poked her head out of the curtain that held peick behind it. "Captain, warchief" the nurse bowed as a sign of respect. "How is she" Zeke asked as he saw Y/n rushing to the bed that held peick in it.
"Unfortunately the lady is out cold, we predict that she'll wake up in about a week" as soon as those words left the nurses mouth Y/n started to panic. He was leaving tomorrow. "Can you speed it up?!" He practically screamed at the nurse. "N-no.." the nurse couldn't bare to face Y/n, he seemed so broken about the news. Zeke avoided eye contact with his subordinate. Y/n maybe older than Zeke (if only a year) but the scene was still heart breaking. Y/n's breathing stuttered silently before he took a deep breath "get out.." he spoke, he was clearly on the verge of tears. The nurse quickly hurried out for fear of the consequences. Zeke took one step towards Y/n, who was now cradling peicks unconscious body. "I said, get out!!" Zeke stopped in his tracks and adjusted his glasses. "I'll take my leave" the heavy metal door slammed shut as Zeke left. Y/n looked at peick. A few tears fell onto her face, the source was the emotional wreck that was
Y/n "it's all that apes fault...it's all his fault"

The next day was the day Y/n left to paradis. Willy Tybur and commander magath. Y/n hadn't said a word since yesterday and was fully prepared to just kill all of them, take peick and leave for the walls but that'd be stupid. Theo magath approached the heir.
"Y/n..." When the boy didn't respond theo sighed. contrary to popular belief the commander has a good heart, he cares for all his students. "I'm...sorry that events have turned out like this." The commander scavenged his lighter and cigarettes from his pocket. He looked at Y/n before lighting it and decided to offer him one "here, you must be stressed" deciding to just follow what people want him to be/do as if it was an order from the highest authority Y/n took one. "Maximilian wanted me to tell you that he'll miss you" Theo took a drag from his cigarette. It was long and dragged out. Y/n copied the commanders movements, not exactly sure on what to do. "You'll need to come here once a month on the last day to fill in a report." Y/n hummed as he watched the waves of the ocean clash against the beach. "We have plans to attack the middle East" what the commander said had little to no effect on
Y/n. He had suspected this to happen a long time ago. Y/n stood up and walked to the opposite end of the wall they were on, looking down at the sand below him Y/n pulled out his knife and slowly slit his had open. As blood began to trickle down from his fingers and into the sand below Y/n quietly said to his commander "don't get my family killed"