♡♡~~~~~~~~♡♡ Sitting at home with jungkook forcing me to eat was not the best thing. I had a strange urge to go see nahae , I had called Namjoon a couple of minutes ago and he said there was nothing new she was critical .
Her critical condition wasn't helping my severe mental stress .
Taehyung and Namjoon stayed in the hospital and sent me home to rest and shoo away my thoughts for a while cause even the hospitals smell reminded me about how the car ran over her.
After coming home I didn't feel that anxiety anymore but the urge to go see Nahae before it was too late ,summed up to my tension and there was no reduction of the extreme weight on my shoulders .
I prayed every minute that all of this was a nightmare and I'd wake up but no. I pinched myself so hard yet I didn't wake up.
Jungkook shoved another spoon of cheese pasta in my mouth and I forcefully chewed it , not wanting any kind of physical satisfaction in my body.
I understood their fear, but I couldn't help at this moment . I hadn't shed a single tear since the incident , as if all my emotions faded and that's what scared them.
I become so vulnerable in such situations that I do anything to distract myself from mental pain but I was determined I wouldn't harm myself . I wouldn't cause more problems .
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Jungkook looked down sighing in defeat when I refused to open my mouth ,declining to eat my favorite food.
My phone buzzed and I quickly looked at the caller id and it was Namjoon . I received the call.
You : Joon.
Namjoon : Naenae come to the hospital right now, there's an emergency .
You : I'm coming .
I declined the call standing up grabbing my keys and gesturing jungkook to come with me.
I drove to the hospital calmly . I entered and went to the I.C.U. ward and looked at Namjoon who was looking down ,I kept calm ,insanely calm . And taehyung worriedly held my hand .
Taehyung : You're ok?
I nodded.
Namjoon : Lets get in.
I walked in the ward and went to nahae's room I pushed the door open ,noticing some nurses and and doctors standing beside her bed looking down.
The air was cold and it was insanely peaceful like the peace before the storm. I noticed the usual beeping of the machines weren't there .
I looked at her . She looked extremely pale ,paler than before ,the machines and casts detached from her body the oxygen cylinder far from the bed.
......the monitors showing straight lines. It can't be---
I looked at Namjoon and saw him in tears looking at me . I looked at taehyung already crying and sniffling .
I looked at jungkook and he had this same shocked expression as me but a knowing and pitiful one as well.
And that's when it all hit me.And I broke down.
Told ya it could be sadder.
BUT BTS ANIVERSARRY IS COMING IN A FEW HOURS.
AND THE WE ARE BULLETPROOF :THE ETERNAL MV WAS SO EMOTIONAL OMO.
