The sight of Love (LOVE SERIES #1)

WAKAS

Late in the afternoon, I decided to go for a run. it's been 2 months since Alvaro left the country and they will come home tomorrow, finally. I miss him so much. nong umalis sila ay saka ko lang nalaman na bumili siya ng aso para ibigay saakin, but he didn't directly give it, iniwan niya lang ito sa Kwarto ko without me knowing, kahit nagtatampo ay inalagaan ko ang aso at pinangalanan siyang Ali.

pagkatapos kong mag-jogging ay umuwi na rin ako para mag drills, pero nong malapit na ako sa bahay namin ang siyang pagtigil ng mundo ko, I smiled and run towards them.

"Baby!"

Tumakbo ako papunta sakanya at saka hinagkan, I miss him so much! I buried my face in his neck and felt his kisses in my head.

"I miss you"

"I miss you more"

I gave him a peck on the lips and smiled, ngumisi siya saakin at binuhat.

"nagkiss lang tayo sa airport ng isang beses pero mukhang mas gusto mo na ako halikan sa lips kesa sa cheeks"

tinaasan ko siya ng kilay at saka pinalo "perv!"

"hey, that was a bit judgmental, baby"

it was the best day ever since he left, I was still missing him so I cling to him all day long but as soon as everything gets real, I woke up from the dream. bumangon ako saaking kama at saka tinignan si Ali na natutulog sa tabi ng aking kama, naramdaman niya atang nakatitig ako sakanya kaya nagising ito at tumalon sa aking Kama.

"Good morning, baby. Still no sign of Daddy" I said and smiled at him sadly.

bumangon ako sa aking kama at naligo na, pati sa pagligo ay naiisip ko parin siya. I remembered how he promise me to comeback, how we kissed and how he slowly let go of me.

bago pa lumayo ang aking iniisip ay tinapos ko na ang aking pagligo at nagbihis na para sa aming Graduation, sinuot ko ang aking Black tulle Cocktail dress at aking nude ankle strap heels  at saka kinuha ang aking toga. I heard a knock from the door, tinignan ko siya at saka ngumiti.

"pwede bang ako ang mag-ayos sayo?"

tumango ako kay Ate Alex at umupo sa harap ng aking vanity table, she started putting light make up and then curled my hair. I look myself in the mirror and a flashback of him hugging me from the back and saying "congratulations" 

I opened my eyes and smiled sadly, nakatingin si ate Alex saakin na may pangamba sa kanyang mga mata, I gave her a sweet smile and stood up.

"ang ganda mo, siguro pag andito yon kanina pa siya nakatitig sayo"

I scoffed and smirked "but his not here"

nagulat siya sa aking sagot at tinignan ako "I'm sorry, hindi ko na dapat sinabi"

I just smiled at her and went out of my room, I saw my family with his so I smiled and went directly to the car, The whole ride is quiet, no one dared to talk or talk to me.

Sa pagtawag ng Mc sa aking pangalan ay siyang pagbalik ng alala na makita siyang nakatayo, pumapalakpak at winawagayway ang kanyang mga kamay upang mapansin ko siya.

Instead of smiling in the camera a tear fell from my eyes, sa harap ng maraming tao pinili kong ipakita kong ano talaga ang nararamdaman ko.

"Congratulations, Kaelen. With high honors, sports award, leadership award, best in science and Loyalty award"

nginitian at batian lang ang ginawa namin sa boung paglabas ko sa Gym ng school namin, agad agad rin akong pumasok sa Van na rinentahan nila at tinanggal ang toga at medal na nasa akin, kasi kahit meron ako ng mga yan hindi naman ako masaya eh. I'm not happy that his gone, that his not around, that his no where in my arms.

"Kaelen"

agad kong tinanggal ang kamay kong nakatakip sa aking mukha at tinignan si Easton, pumasok siya sa Van at yinakap ako, sunod sunod ang pagpasok ng aking mga Kaibigan sa aming Van.

"hush, now"

"pwede naman niya akong maging sandalan bat mas pinili niya akong iwan?"

I heard him sigh and hug me tigther "because he doesn't want you to see him weak"

"But I'm weak because of him!"

hindi nalang ito sumagot at hinayaan akong umiyak sa tabi niya, Maybe we love each other to the point that he doesn't want me to see him weak, but losing him was the reason of me being weak.

his father died, I understand. I could have been his shoulder to cry on but he decided to be alone and hurt me, It's not an official break up but if he doesn't comeback until I graduate Med School. It's over, I will stop loving him and continue loving myself.