Rain of Nightmares (Medical Series #2)

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"Hey? Are you okay?"

Cy walked towards me when the voluntary check up's finally done. He reached for my chin, examining my face. It's a bit awkward though.

"I-I am." Dahan-dahan kong inalis ang kamay niya sa baba ko, hindi pa rin siya tinitingnan dahil naramdaman ko ang pag-init ng pisngi ko. "I-I'm just tired."

Hindi niya nalang ako kinulit pa nang umupo ako sa monobloc chair malapit sa may entrance. I kept on giving small smiles with the patients dahil binabati nila ako bago sila umaalis. I can't just be rude to them.

It's already 5 PM when we decided to go home. Nakatulog pa ako sa loob ng sasakyan dahil sa pagod. I'm just physically and mentally drained. Thinking about what Laurie said regarding to Cy-- I just felt really guilty.

"Steph." A soft voice called my name.

Gumalaw ako at napailing ng maramdaman ang sakit sa leeg ko. Siguro dahil sa posisyon ko habang natutulog. Isinandal ko lang kasi ang ulo ko sa may bintana.

When I rubbed my eyes to erase my blurry vision, I saw Cy's face just a few inches away from me. He looked soft and guilty at the same time for waking me up.

"We're home." He said, still using his soft voice. I can feel and smell his breath. It's like a mint.

"Oh." Hindi ko alam kung anong reaksyon ko kung bakit siya biglang tumawa. I ended up pushing his face to widen our gap.

Bumaba ako sa sasakyan niya at marahang napasigaw ng madama ang ulan. Dapit-hapon pa lang pero malamig na naman ang panahon. I didn't even felt it just a few seconds ago. Kung hindi pa siguro ako bumaba ay hindi ko pa mapapansin.

I was too occupied with the thought that he smells like mint and it's just to attractive--I guess?

"No coffee." I looked at him when he's about to say something.

He just laughed instead when I ran to the lobby to hide from the rain. He waved his hand a little before closing the shotgun seat. Hinintay ko nalang siyang makaalis bago ako tumakbo papunta sa unit. I'm just too thankful na ibang guard 'yong nakabantay kanina dahil baka maasar na naman ako.

I shook my head a little. I'm getting more sensitive now.

The day felt so slow but the week managed to passed without Cy bothering me to go out. He just keeps on asking me if I'm fine or want to go outside. 

He's too determined to change my mind.

Sinabihan ko na kasi siya na hindi muna ako guluhin dahil may kailangan akong tapusin. It's just that I want to think for a long time if Laurie's right. Am I using Cy for my own gain?

He's may be the one who offered his hand to me, but I also thought that if I just ended up ignoring it, edi sana hindi siya nagtitiis sa akin na bigla bigla nalang umiiyak o naiinis.